Drunk on Peace and Quiet: Tales of Stella and Jonas, #1

dedicated to

the spirit

of strong women

everywhere

who hunger for

the giddy warmth

of stress-free lives:

to simply be

drunk on peace and quiet

Table of Contents

Dedication

Preface (or Why I Wrote This)

Acknowledgements

Chapter 1 May: Simply Hoping for Rain

Chapter 2 May: The Past is Present

Chapter 3 May: Jonas and The Talk

Chapter 4 June: Cemetery Security

Chapter 5 June: Be Prepared

Chapter 6 June: Boy Scouts and Cool Whip

Chapter 7 June: Jonas Knows

Chapter 8 July: Yard Sale

Chapter 9 July: Late For Church

Chapter 10 July: Fundraiser

Chapter 11 July: Daughters and Husbands

Chapter 12 August: A Diversion

Chapter 13 August: The Threat

Chapter 14 August: Making Money

Chapter 15 August: Jonas and the Pod

Chapter 16 September: Fall Festival

Chapter 17 September: Facing Facts

Chapter 18 September: Madness and Mafia

Chapter 19 September: Good-Bye Anna

Chapter 20 October: Thieves and eBay

Chapter 21 October: Lawyer Visit

Chapter 22 October: Internet and Teeth

Chapter 23 October: Stella Knows

Chapter 24 October: Scam and Gun Lessons

Chapter 25 October: Charlene

Chapter 26 November: Investigations

Chapter 27 November: I Will Survive

Chapter 28 November: Night Terrors

Chapter 29 November: More Terror

Chapter 30 November: Official Arraignment

Chapter 31 November: Just Want You

Chapter 32 November: Visiting Hours

Chapter 33 Thanksgiving Day: Graveyard Chat

Stella’s Wedding

Preface (or Why I Wrote This)

My childhood lacked late night TV and today’s magical electronic entertainment. Instead, Tell me a story. was our constant bedtime plea. Most nights my mom or dad or a brother would oblige. Tarzan, Bomba the Jungle Boy, Hopalong Cassidy, Biblical stories, Epaminonimous, and many more tales satisfied me.

Now, I read to feed the life-long hunger of needing words and characters outside of reality. Sometimes my bedtime stories were obviously made up as the story-teller went along. Like them, this book of Stella and her life was also made up as I wrote, sometimes from bits of experiences, often from rumor, and every now and then the stuff of daydreams. What fun it has been to add a story back into the cycle of stories to be told!

Acknowledgements

At an interview years ago, I told the employer that I was born to do this. Indeed, it seemed that everything I had ever done prepared me for running an alternative high school and I got the job. I believe every moment in our lives depends on the past, the contacts, education, choices, and experiences we have had. This story is no different. It wafted its way out of my imagination using the realistic structure of actual places.

In addition, there are many who figured specifically in the book’s creation. Writing seminars at the John C. Campbell Folk School and at Historic Rugby, Tennessee, both led by the incredibly generous and talented author of Appalachian mysteries, Vicki Lane, boosted my confidence and skills.

For information on the law, Sandro Jankovic, Chuck Coburn, Debra Dalton, and the ladies in the Monroe County Sheriff’s Office answered my questions. Steve Boothe supplied wonderful photos of Peters Mountain. Reverend Brent Brown supplied the organizational schema of the United Methodist Church and some wonderful tales from church life. The hard-working congregation of our home church models only good behavior, not the made-up deceptions and implied rottenness in this story.

Peterstown’s current eighth graders, someday the James Monroe High School Class of 2020 (the number makes me laugh and hope their vision will be perfect) was full of ideas for page number placement and book size. Adam Durham and Sidney Cozort brought drama to the promotional video, your acting was appreciated.

Connie Taylor, Fathom Publishing Company, again, is full of the latest ideas in the book-publishing world and offers them ever so kindly. No one works harder in getting a book ready or in attending to detail. Artist Jeff Duckworth, Duck of all Trades, created the lovely images in the book.

More generally, friends from the North Slope of Alaska, both Inupiat and non-Native, have influenced my life and writing forever. Earl Finkler and Bob Thomas, radio personalities at KBRW helped get the word out about this book.

My dear friend, Thelma Bradley Booth, told stories about mountain living that made me laugh and cry. Elizabeth Robertson and Trish Beasley are consummate WV school professionals who have a contagious sense of humor. It pops up often both in reality and my writing.

Merri Jackson Hess’ knowledge of Atlanta helped give Stella an authentic place to grow up. Merri’s support of this book (and my sometimes crazy life) is treasured.

Roger, my hubby for forty years, put up with more than I care to list. The plot suggestions he made strengthened the story. I think he loves Stella a little bit, too!

Jay St. Vincent encouraged me to keep writing (more than once) and contributed her editing expertise. Without her, this book would not have been written.

Becky Hatcher Crabtree

August 2015

Chapter 1

May: Simply Hoping for Rain

I don’t know what everybody else was praying for in church that Sunday, but I was sending up thoughts for a good soaking rain. My peas, planted two weeks ago, needed a drink. On the bright side, though, our regular preacher was back in the pulpit. Last week, the lay speaker had kept us extra late with eternal praying. I call it eternal since it went on forever. He prayed that we didn’t forget the potluck dinner following church, for the people who were out of work, the children without food, then he prayed for the victims of mudslides in India. I was pretty sure he was going to name every person who got muddy before the tired congregation echoed his ending with a weak amen. It wasn’t just that the Baptists got a head start on us to the Sunday lunch buffet at Hometown Restaurant, that prayer threw a wet blanket on any zest for life that we still had at the end of the service.

Today, from my regular pew on the front left of the sanctuary, four rows back to be exact, I peeked during the prayer and saw Anna Bradford on the second row of the other side struggling to stand. She was pulling herself up before the silent prayer ended and the pianist hit the first chord for the opening hymn. It seemed like she was trying to be upright before anyone else noticed how hard it was for her. My arms ached to help her up, but I was seated too far away. She wouldn’t sit with me either, because her place for years had been in the second pew on the right, with Charles, her husband, and their two daughters. Charles was dead and the girls were grown and gone and Anna sat alone.

Tradition can go to the devil, I thought, not for the first time; next week, I’ll leave my unofficial pew and go sit with her.

The congregation of my little country church was dear to me, their traditions had become my traditions, well, mostly, but Anna was dearer. Thirty-five years ago, I was a timid twenty-two-year-old girl, tending to an elderly lady on Peters Mountain and Anna had befriended me, explained the unwritten rules of West Virginia living and took my part when I stepped in it unknowingly. She prepped me with church practices, too. I knew our group of Methodists generally expected ritual and order, but I also knew that most of them enjoyed a rare break from the routine.

Today we were having that break in the action. The Voices of Glory Gospel Singers were performing instead of the usual Sunday message. Some worshippers allowed themselves a glow of optimism. The chance of getting to Hometown Restaurant before the Baptists let out church was better than usual. Often, there was not a hope in heaven of Pastor Beauregard Booth hushing before long past high noon. This knowledge had not come from Anna, but from years of my own hungry observation.

When it was time for the sermon, there was an edgy silence and then three sturdy men in tailored suits came up the center aisle singing into their microphones. They turned with a flourish at the front and continued to sing. Our congregation began to sway and sing along with the familiar hymn, Will the Circle Be Unbroken? as the music blasted clear and crisp from large speakers on either side of the altar. The men were dressed more stylishly than any of the men in the audience, even though the buttons of the suit jackets were pulling snugly on the buttonholes. They wore vests and ties and brightly colored button-up shirts. Their pants had crisp creases ending at the toes of shiny pointed leather shoes. Little pointed silk hankies in their suit coat jackets matched each shirt, blue and green and yellow. I straightened my faded dress and tried to tuck wisps of my ever-frizzy hair back in place to rival their neat appearances. Yes, they were slick as a magazine and smelled good, too; woodsy aftershave fumes wafted halfway down the aisle.

I joined in the clapping and singing, and watched the fleshy men. The music was grand, and I enjoyed it. As I watched, my eye caught on the lead singer, the one wearing the blue shirt and the oldest of the three. As he placed his microphone on a stand and gestured with his arms, I caught a good whiff of cologne and the memory of long ago burst into my thoughts.

Mom had let us sleep late by mistake, and we were hurrying to get ready for school. My brother was a high school senior, and I must’ve been a tenth grader. I had gotten to the bathroom first, and Timmy Lee was pounding on the bathroom door. He always wanted more time to primp in front of the medicine cabinet mirror and slap on cologne. I put the metal bathroom door hook into the eye on the door facing to lock it. I thought I was safe for another few minutes, but suddenly there was a crash. He broke through the board, ripping out the hook-and-eye fastener and shoved me into the shower. He knocked me back into the shower corner and I slid into the floor. I tried to use my arms to cover my head, but he still kicked me in the ribs and face until the black and white tiles were tinged with red.

I massaged my neck with one hand and escaped from the memory as the hymn ended and vigorous applause filled our little sanctuary. Just remembering Timmy Lee had made me sick at my stomach, but I relaxed some when I looked over to check on Anna and saw her delicate hands raised up chin-high, clapping gently. The men’s voices were lovely, deep and pure and fit their choice of old-fashioned hymns. There was something about that lead singer, though. When his eyes lit up and darted around the sanctuary, my mind paused, memories of my brother’s eyes flashed before me again, and I was slammed back into the past.

He was a little boy, maybe six years old and had taken a tiny kitten from our mama barn cat before it was ready to leave its mother. The poor thing was sucking the air, trying to eat anything. Timmy Lee offered it the twisted corner of a dishrag wet with terrible tasting stuff: lemon juice and turpentine. His eyes gleamed with satisfaction at the kitty’s sour expressions.

I gripped the back of the pew before me and shook my head to end that awful memory. The singers were introducing each other to the congregation and explaining their mission. We aim to use the gift of music God gave us to renew and inspire devotion to God.

Amen, the other men murmured.

The man in the green shirt added, And we are doing it across the back roads of America.

The congregation responded with hearty amens.

They seemed like nice enough men, but their smiles and laughs were a little forced. Something about their pudgy bodies bothered me, especially the lead singer. He wore the bright blue shirt and a couple of fancy rings. One of them was a black onyx ring that cut into his pinky finger. I tried to have a better attitude and turned my eyes towards fragile little Anna. She was leaning forward and nodding her head. I relaxed again when I saw her joy.

The lead singer had taken over the microphone and was working himself up to sound like an old-timey preacher. He kept a pounding beat of his words with a breathy repetition of the last consonant of each line. I accepted the Lord when I was just a boy, praise Jesus-suh. And I have been blessed richly an-duh one of my greatest blessings is my son, Adam, singing tenor right here for God and for you today-yuh. The Lord continues to work wonders in my life-fuh, to bless me with this mission to win souls for him-muh. I give thanks for that and for-ruh my wonderful family who makes my work-kuh possible. Hallelujah!

He wiped spit from both corners of his mouth with a starched handkerchief and pressed lips against the microphone again, Do you like our singing?

The congregation amen-ed and yes, Lord-ed.

We gonna sing some more for you in a minute-tuh, but we want to share with you that our ministry is an expensive one, and a difficult one, an-duh, we need ever one of you out there, to make sacrifices to help this ministry, an-duh, spread God’s word-duh.

It was all so phony. I was fighting the urge to scream and swallow down the bile rising in my throat. These guys were crooks, but I composed myself somewhat as he went on and on. The offering was taken, and I had to reach across empty seats for the offering plate. My arm seemed detached from my body, but I nodded thank you to my neighbor and smiled not because I was glad to get the plate but because to cheer myself I imagined how good it would feel to go over the finances of the Voices of Glory with my accounting software and catch these fakes.

Boy, you better believe I put nothing in that offering. After I handed it off, I bowed my head and tried to look like I was praying but I was trying to get a grip on my unChristian-like thoughts.

Then, the preacher requested a hymn that was unfamiliar to the singing group but they agreed to give it a try. It was popular in our area, but the singers needed to see the music and the words so the ushers scurried around gathering up three hymnals. The organist played the song through once and then the singers held the song books up high to see the words. I watched the jeweled rings on the lead singer’s fingers.

My heart stopped. I thought I was going to faint, so I closed my eyes, but when I opened them it was still there. Or, rather, it wasn’t there. The right middle finger of the lead singer, pressed against the navy blue hymnal, was missing a nail, shortened by one joint. Timmy Lee’s middle finger had been shortened at the same joint, the result of a shop class accident.

It is him. The nightmare of my life, the reason I ran away from home on graduation night, the monster that is my brother stands before me in the front of my own church.

Chapter 2

May: The Past is Present

Although my world had shifted, I was still sitting in my usual polished oak pew at the Lindside United Methodist Church rubbing my neck and surrounded by fifty other members of the congregation. The service was winding down and I tried to act normally, just wasn’t sure I could pull it off. I could feel stray hairs unfolding on my neck, my neat white bun coming undone and it occurred to me that my life was unraveling in about the same way.

Timothy Lee looks like he’s about ready for market, his ole jowl flesh jiggling below his face. Thought I’d never have to see those smirking eyes again. He’s still lying and my friends’re buying. Out of money, too, those ritzy car salesman suits are frayed around the edges. Adam has grown up a good-looking man. Can’t even tell he had pig eyes and a big head when he was born …. Wonder where Adam’s mom is … not on the bus with these boys for sure. Wonder if she’s even still alive; hard living and drugs plus living with Timmy Lee’s a fast track to the graveyard for sure …. Does he have any clue who I am? Do I dare test him to find out? Oh, Lordy, why in the world did he have to show up here?

The Voices of Glory boomed out the Doxology. I lifted eyes to the altar and felt better. Then I looked at Timmy Lee.

Let’s see if he knows me – I’m gonna look him right in the eyes while he sings the amen. Nope, no recognition. Can I stop hatin’ him enough to fake my way through the rest of the service? I have survival skills; it’s not like this is a new problem, flipping hatred to positive vibes. I’ve got years of practice.

I focus on what I want to try to simplify this crisis. In an ideal world what would I want? Him and his ilk out of my life, my quiet life, my life that values doing the right thing, that leaves me drunk on excessive peace and quiet. I want to enjoy my home, the trust I have earned in this new life with my precious friend Anna, my animals, and Jonas, the love of my life.

Ever since I had left Atlanta I had known that I would have to deal with Timmy Lee again someday, but I had not yet come up with a plan. I was afraid, and, as decades had come and gone, that fear had lessened until I had been able to put a big pile of boulders on a tiny pulsing fear and felt at peace with my life. Once, when I watched a TV show about repressed memories, it had flashed through my head that I was doing some heavy repressing myself. Now Timmy Lee’s explosion back into my life at church, the place I felt most at peace, amounted to a personal assault. I just didn’t know what to do next, but, without a doubt, it was time for some kind of action.

I looked him dead in the face again as he walked out the main aisle with Preacher Booth. He and Adam went to stand beside the preacher at the back of the church and glad-handed each of the churchgoers as they exited. No way I was touching that evil, even to shake hands. My stomach rolled. As I scurried towards the side door, Anna told me she was going to get a ride with Sally Spencer, hugged me tight, and joined the ladies leaving out the main aisle. I’m outa here; maybe I can get out the door before someone invites me to Hometown Restaurant for Sunday dinner. I need air, deep breaths of clean air, and a shower. I have to go home and shore up my crumbling life.

A drizzly rain must’ve moved in minutes before I arrived home from church. I sure didn’t notice then but here I was, drenched and dripping in the living room, a pathway of water behind me through the kitchen. Although my earlier desire for water for my garden had been met, it was no longer my priority. My mind was set on bigger problems. Life sure is funny and mine had been interrupted in an ugly dang way and at church of all places, at my own church. The worn leather recliner gave me the come hither and I snuggled into it to think. It helped to come home to peace and quiet after that horrendous church service.

I pressed my face into the chair and caught the scent of old leather. It smelled like my grandpa’s wallet and brought me back to that tender faraway moment my grandpa dug into his front pocket for his wallet.

The last time I saw Grandpa was high school graduation night, June something, 1970. He found me lined up in the hallway and offered me a handful of thin twenty-dollar bills spread out like a poker hand. Kids made fun of him because he carried his money in his front pocket unlike other men around town. His hip pocket had been picked when he was a honeymooner at the World’s Fair in St. Louis and he’d had to work to buy a train ticket for Grandma and him to get home. He never carried money in his hip pocket again. His kind eyes were sad as he pushed the money towards me without a word. I wondered if he had noticed that my bruised face was plastered with Mom’s makeup so I could get through the graduation ceremony. Right or wrong, I had grabbed the money and used it to get as far away as I could as fast as I could. Getting that diploma and getting outa town were all I could think about. Didn’t go back when he died. Or when Grandma passed. Didn’t want to chance any upsets. I figure they understood.

As I nestled deeper into the soft leather, I relived the details of my Class of ’70 graduation night, thirty-seven years ago.

I had taken my green marbled Samsonite train case to the school in one hand and my white dress on a clothes hanger in the other. I told Mom that I needed something to carry hairspray and makeup but truth be told, I had stuffed everything I could in it: shirts and underwear and two pair of slacks, the $300 I had managed to save, and pictures of my dad. Even as I shut the lid and hooked the brass clasps, I started feeling freer.

There wasn’t any point in making an appearance at the reception after the graduation; I knew Mom wouldn’t be there, so I went back to the home economics room to change. While a few other girls were whooping it up and running around in their petticoats hugging each other, I wiggled into my black jeans, a sweatshirt and jeans jacket, pulled on bobby socks and tennis shoes, grabbed my Samsonite and silently slipped out the back door of the school. It didn’t seem far to walk to the Greyhound bus station, but I had studied the city map and knew it was over a mile.

The bus left at ten o’clock that night with me on it, enjoying the sights and smells. To this day, when I smell a combination of diesel fumes