Alexander Hamilton and Elizabeth Schuyler Hamilton

Alexander Hamilton and Elizabeth Schuyler Hamilton

A Master Passion

By Juliet Waldron

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Dedication

How I Met Alexander Hamilton

In a sepia shadowed bookshop,

Where an imperious charcoal

Cat with yellow eyes glared from

A fly-specked window,

I found you.

You—

Ecstatic, thin, fair head thrown back,

Face shining, 1776 on fire!

No wonder your friends,

Fellow aides-de-camp to the great

George Washington, nicknamed

You Little Lion.

Across time

We held hands,

Wandered brown-sugar sands,

Watched waves rise and

Toss wild white manes against the reef,

Brother and sister—

We were alike,

Children in peril.

Part One

Love and Liberty

Chapter One    West Indies

Sharing a sick feeling, Alex and Jamie Hamilton stood on barefoot tiptoe and peeked through flimsy wooden louvers, all that separated the rooms of their small West Indian house. Both boys were red-heads, but there the resemblance ended. Eleven year old James was well-grown and strong. Alexander, seven in January, was delicate, fast-moving and nervous, like a freckled bird.

An idiot would have known not to trust him. The beautiful dark eyes of their mother flashed. Rachel faced her husband, a slight man of aristocratic feature, who wore a white linen suit. Like him, it had seen better days. His wife’s tone was challenging, her arms akimbo. Her stays, containing a generous bosom, rose and fell.

I—I—took him for a gentleman. Father sputtered, attempting to fall back upon a long ago mislaid dignity. He gave me his word.

His word!? Which means bloody nothing! How many times did I tell you what was going to happen? How many times?

Shut your mouth, woman!

A sharp crack sounded as he slapped her. Rachel, hair spilling from beneath her cap, staggered backwards. From the kitchen came the fearful keening of Esther, their mother’s oldest slave.

There’s naught canna be dune noo! James Hamilton, his long face flushed, roared the words. Scots surfaced whenever he was angry.

Yes, nothing to be done. As usual. A livid mark glowed upon Rachel’s face, but she, with absolute disregard for consequences, righted herself and finished what she had to say.

This time Lytton’s going to let you go. And if you can’t even manage to hold a job with my kinfolk, where will you get another? What are we supposed to live on? Air?

In spite of the fact that it was winter on the island, the best weather of the entire year, Alexander shuddered. Distilled fear slid along his spine.

How many times in his short life had he watched this scene replayed? Listened to Mama shout Papa’s failures, watched as his father, humiliated and enraged, used his fists to silence her?

A business deal gone bad! Money lost….

Will we move again?

Every change of residence, from Alexander’s birthplace on cloudy Nevis, to St. Kitts, and from there to St. Croix, had carried them to smaller houses and meaner streets. The carriage, the two bay horses and the slaves who tended them, were only a memory.

Mama was shrieking now, about loans and due dates, things which she declared any fool could understand. Frozen, knowing what would surely come, Alexander watched as his father, crossing the room in two quick strides, caught his mother by the shoulders.

With the strength of rage, he threw her like a rag doll. She struck the wall so violently the flimsy house shook. Small emerald lizards stalking the mosquitoes drawn by candlelight, vanished into shadow.

Silenced at last, Rachel crumpled to the floor, sobbing. Her once gay calico dress, muted by many, many launderings, lapped her. The under-shift, always scrubbed to a sea-foam white, drifted from beneath.

James Hamilton, breathing hard, blind with rage, tore open the door and strode past his cowering, terrified sons. For the last time, Alexander saw his beloved father’s face, a sweating mask of fear.

* * *

Come on, boys. Out of there.

A candle shone in the balmy West Indies night. The voice wasn’t unkind, just drunk and hurried. From outside came the bell-chorus of an untold host of peepers.

Alex and Jamie, in shirts too ragged to wear during the day, had been asleep in the only bed. There was a mattress filled with palm fronds in the next room upon the floor, but this time of year scorpions came in. When Mama hadn’t returned, they’d decided to sleep in the greater safety of her bed.

Jamie groaned, sat up and rubbed the sleep out of his eyes. The Captain of the Guards, Mr. Egan, leaned over. He breathed rum and seemed unsteady. Behind him, supporting herself on the door frame, was Mama. She was, Alexander noted with a thrill of disgust, bare-shouldered, her cap removed, her shining dark hair loosened.

Out, boys, she echoed. Esther said she’d beat your mattress and lay it out after supper. What are you doing in here?

Neither boy replied. She didn’t want an answer. What she wanted was for them to leave. Tomorrow she’d give them a scolding, but not tonight. At the moment there were other, more important things on her mind.

Here, young fellow. Egan, muscles rippling beneath his shirt, handed Jamie the candle. Obediently, Jamie took it. Their rooms were, after all, rented space in the front of his house.

Use this to look if you’re worried something’s in your bed. Your Ma and I won’t be needing it.

He threw a grin at Rachel, who was restlessly tossing a dark curl over a pale shoulder. Mrs. Lavien or Mrs. Hamilton—whichever name she used now that she was living alone with her sons on St. Croix—was almost thirty, but she still turned heads whenever she passed along Christiansted’s bustling main street. Anticipation caused the captain to deliver a slap on the rear to speed the smaller boy along.

Don’t you touch me! Alex spun and glared, his thin face white under coppery curls.

Jamie grabbed a handful of his brother’s shirt. Oh, come on, Alex! He dragged his slight brother through the door. The captain didn’t mean anything.

Alexander was wide awake now, his eyes blazing blue fire. The distant echo of surf, the sighing palms, the intoxicating fragrance of Lady of the Night that climbed in profusion over the house, held no power to still his pounding heart.

Grinning, Egan stepped back, threw an arm that was infuriatingly proprietary around his mother.

Yes. Don’t start, Rachel cautioned. Just mind your own business and go back to sleep. Her dark eyes turned toward Egan. One hand moved easily across his chest, taking in the feel of hard flesh beneath. Alexander wanted to kill them both.

If you and Jamie slept where you were supposed to, this wouldn’t happen.

Come on, woman. Egan terminated the conversation, pulling her playfully through the door into the darkness.

The little brats. Their mother was heard to sigh when the door closed. I swear they do it on purpose.

In the next room, the boys busied themselves in a thorough inspection of their mattress. Satisfied at last about the absence of scorpions, they extinguished the candle and lay down together. From over the transom came whispered laughter and the sound of the captain’s boots dropping to the floor.

In the soft darkness, beside his now stolidly motionless brother, Alexander crammed fingers tightly into his ears. Tears pooled against his cheek.

Oh, Papa, he whispered into the night. Papa, please come back.

* * *

You aren’t bastards, you know, no matter how many say it. In their room over the store, Rachel sipped at her glass of rum and gazed out the window.

Jamie rolled his eyes at Alex. Here it came, the nightly monologue. And what difference did their innocence make, anyway? Jamie knew there was no escape.

My mother made me marry this rich Dane. Anyway, she thought he was rich. Rachel began as she always did. A wretched worm, that Lavien! I was about your age, Jamie, when she gave me to him. The fool was even worse at business than your father. It only took him a year to lose my dowry.

Rachel smiled crookedly, drained her glass. The man she’d been expecting hadn’t appeared. It had left her melancholy.

Lavien got crazy drunk and beat me. I hear he beats the donkey he’s got for a wife these days, too. One night, in fear for my life, I ran away. That cowardly, spotted caitiff went to the magistrate and said I was unfaithful, that the man I’d run to for protection was my lover. He had me locked in prison for adultery.

Rachel frowned, stared at the ceiling and twirled a dark curl meditatively. By now, Alex knew mother was already very, very drunk. Inwardly, he shrank.

Fat bugs circled the oil lamp, creating a dizzy pattern of light and shadow. The space held their mother’s bed, a wardrobe, a hulking sea chest, a table and three chairs. Sometimes it was a pleasant place to be, for the high windows of the room caught the prevailing breeze. In this part of Christiansted, though, where there were taverns and whorehouses, it was best to be above street level at night.

A roaring sea shanty began in the inn a few doors down. Jamie’s head swiveled toward the sound in a gesture of impatience. He wanted to be away, out on the street with his friends, but Rachel was still busy with recollection.

Captain Egan got me out of jail and sent me back to Nevis, to my Mama. I carried a child, but as soon as he was born, Mama gave him to a nurse and sent them back to Saint Croix. I never suckled the ugly little brute, not once. Lavien got a divorce, but what justice is there for a woman in this world? Bloody none, I’ll tell you. The law, the Danish Law, Rachel twisted the words, twisted them so that they became a sneer, says that because I’d run away from a man who’d threatened to kill me, I was no better than a whore, and that I could never marry again.

Into the pause that followed, tree frogs shouted. The relief their neutral chorus provided was broken by drunken laughter from the street below. Inwardly, Alexander damned those sailors. They seemed to mock his mother’s painful story, the one she couldn’t stop retelling.

Across the table, his older brother maintained an expression of studied disinterest. He’d heard it a thousand times. Alex knew that Jamie had plans to meet his forbidden friends, that bad company he just naturally seemed to prefer.

Still, Rachel’s gaze fixed upon the intent face of her youngest, When I met James Hamilton on Nevis, he said he didn’t care a fig for any stupid Danish law. We were married, too, married by a clergyman.

She leaned across the table to stroke Alexander’s thin cheek. So, these Danes may call you bastards, but you aren’t. And, she added, sitting back and splashing a drop more rum into her glass, they may call me whore, but I’m not that, either. Not that we wouldn’t live better....

For a blessed moment, the tree frogs sang unaccompanied. Then his mother concluded as she always did. If your father had been half the man I thought he was, we’d be rich now and no one would dare talk to us like they do. Hear me, boys! In this rotten world, money is the salve that soothes every sore.

* * *

And a couple of pounds of salt pork too, young fella.

Alex tugged open the cask, then picked up a knife, excised a chunk of the hard gray stuff, and weighed it on the balance scale. As he neatly wrapped this in a piece of newspaper, he said, You owe us six shillin’s, Mr. Inness. We could use some on account. Today, if you please, sir.

The red-necked customer scowled, but Alexander held the package tightly to his skinny chest and stared up steadily at the man towering over him. He was only ten, and small for his age, but there was not so much as a flicker of fear in his blue eyes.

The money was due. The money was for Mama.

There was a grumbling pause, then the purse came out and a few coins were counted down. Well, Alex, ’course, ahem, I cain’t give you all, but will that hold you for a while?

Yes, sir—for today, sir. But we can’t keep your account open all the time because we have to pay Mr. Cruger on thirty day terms. That’s how you get everything for less here than over at McIntyre’s.

Alexander toted the difference and handed over a receipt.

Thank you, Mr. Inness, sir. I’ll look forward to the rest on Friday. His manner was differential, but his tone was not.

When the customer left, muttering and shaking his head about being pushed by a child, Alexander went straight to the ledger. No new customer came, so he climbed onto the high stool and began working at the figures.

Jamie had slipped out earlier. He was probably down at the docks by this time, hanging around with the thieving, gambling idlers he called friends. Alexander routinely covered for his absences. He didn’t miss his brother. Jamie was a nuisance. He gabbed too much with the customers, never asked for money and never wrote things down.

* * *

Some months passed. Jamie was apprenticed to a carpenter on the other side of the island for his own good. Just after, a fever swept through Christiansted. Rachel caught it first, then Alexander.

In their upstairs room, Mother and son tossed on the same bed, tended feebly by old Esther, the only slave not rented out. The surgeon came, bled Rachel, and gave her medicine. Two days flowed by in a throbbing, aching blur. Both patients were drenched in sweat, always thirsty, skin on fire.

Alex didn’t know how long it was that he and his mother lay in that bed. The passing of a day was signaled by the reappearance of the surgeon to bleed Mama, the hours by Esther. Humming softly, whispering prayers to the many gods she knew, Esther would sit beside the bed and patiently spoon chicken broth or some cold, bitter herb tea into their parched mouths.

Day and night spiraled; the doctor appeared to give Rachel an emetic. For the first time, he bled Alex, too.

Mama had been tossing and moaning, but, after a long spell of vomiting, she’d grown quieter. A kind of rattling came with each breath. Alexander, aching and shivering, drifting in and out, didn’t mark the moment when the sound stopped.

In his fever, unable to move or speak, the pool of urine in which they lay felt strangely good, comforting. Esther’s withered, weeping black face materialized for a time and then disappeared.

Next, the doctor and two Danish officials arrived. They began poking around, picking up ledgers and opening drawers. Alex tried to protest, to order them out, but only a kind of murmuring came. The fever sat like a giant on his chest.

Ask Mrs. McDonnell to come and lay her out.

They took things—Mama’s things…!

Alexander struggled to rise, but he couldn’t.

Esther. He whispered to the old woman who rocked and wept beside the bed. What de doin’?

Takin’ your Mama’s things for de Court, Masta Alex. Soon de goin’ to take me, too. Oh, what’ll become of poor Esther? Your sweet Mama knowed I could’n work n’ more.

Alexander tried to push himself upright, but everything disappeared as soon as he lifted his shoulders from the pillow.

Mama is dead.

The pale yellow room and everything in it flowed. The pain in his joints, in his head, was shattering. Alexander now had an idea that he, too, would die.

Not much left of the boy. Apparently attracted by his struggles, a fat face peered down. Hey, you, Hector! Put him over there, away from the body.

The black obediently gathered Alexander up, then, without ceremony, dumped him onto the palm frond mattress on the floor. Movement was agony. Blackness rushed him again.

Don’t look like he goin’ to last. The same fat, unsympathetic face stared down, a face familiar, although Alex couldn’t summon the name.

Leave the old N’gress stay. She can tell us when he dies.

Too bad ’bout him. He a real sharp little fella, a big help to his Mama.

Well, that’s as may be, said fat face, but I never seen a whore’s get amount to a damn.

Afterwards, Alexander believed it providential, the flash of rage which coursed through every fiber of his weakened being. Fury pulled him back from the brink.

* * *

Alexander gazed at her, now neatly laid out in her best dress on a board set between chairs. She seemed peaceful now, and she had not been that way often. Rachel had been a restless beauty, her last years spent in an almost continual state of helpless rage.

She is quiet now. Nothing can trouble her. There will be no more failure and betrayal.

Alex shuddered. From now on, he must take care of himself. All that was left in the wind of a hot St. Croix afternoon was Mama’s pitiful, ripening husk.

Her family buried Rachel in the Lytton family graveyard. Although they—aloof from their black sheep—had done nothing to help when she’d been alive; in death, they reclaimed her. Much of the small estate was used up by the fancy funeral old Uncle Lytton insisted upon, although one useful thing came from it. James and Alexander got the first shoes and stockings they’d had in years.

On the day of the burial, Alexander forced himself to walk, dizzily clinging to his brother’s arm. Beneath the pounding sun of an upland plantation, the windy roar of a cane-field ocean in his ears, he and his brother wept.

Beautiful Rachel, who had rocked them, who had taught them, who had loved them and shamed them—Rachel was gone.

* * *

His mother’s first husband, Mr. Lavien, returned to Christiansted, as the devil she’d always claimed him to be. With the Court’s blessing, he took all that she’d worked so hard to earn, both money and slaves, every bit of property that Alex and Jamie had helped her earn at their little store. Lavien took it for that half-brother, a child Rachel had never wanted, a child she’d never once put to my breast.

When Alexander learned what the court had ordered, he ran through the crowded streets of the town, past the pastels of the stucco stores, past the colonnade. Weaving like a madman, he ran across the paths of carriages and around erect, brown women carrying baskets on their heads.

Bare feet down the road! Slaves, sweating, glossy blue-black, turned their heads beneath wide-brimmed straw hats as he plunged past a chain gang on the road. Finally, he crashed into the palm fringe of the beach, startling the mulatto women who rested in company with a crowd of goats and children in the slanting shade.

At last, feet stinging from the cuts sustained on the road, Alex hit the burning, too soft sand of the upper beach. He twisted an ankle, but he didn’t stop. Reaching the harder wet stuff where the waves came and went, he resumed a quick stride. Only when his chest was on fire, and when he felt certain no white person would see him, did he fall to his knees in the sugary wetness.

There was a fierce onshore wind. Breakers exploded over the reef. At last he could cry as loudly as he wanted, in a place where his helplessness, his weakness, would only be witnessed by the thundering sea.

Everything Mama and I worked so hard for, every coin we struggled to make! This devil out of her past appears and the court hands it all to him. To a son she gave away! Long tongues of sea licked the beach. As the wind rose, it started to rasp an ever-deepening gully into the gravel. Although now at the edge of the trench, sun burning his fair skin, Alexander did not move. He almost wished a big rogue wave would roar in and carry him away.

Oh, Mama, you were right! There is law, but there is no justice. I swear to God, I’ll never trust, never rely, never believe in anything but myself, not ever again.

The air filled with flying spray and driven sand. Alexander’s hair stiffened with salt. Each gust threw a prickling handful of grit into his tear-stained, sweating face.

* * *

Alexander carefully closed the heavy ledger. Though he was barely half finished, it had already been a long, long day. Numbers swam before his eyes. He rested his head, those tight fine curls, upon it.

Louvers were angled against the sun, but the heat of a heavy, thunderous summer afternoon invaded the room. No one would come into Mr. Cruger’s Store for some time. It was after dinner, siesta for the Spanish and Portuguese—and for anyone else with half a brain.

His gut was puffed with breadfruit and fresh fried flying fish—a delicious dinner for the staff today—and he had stuffed in as much in as he could hold. Tomorrow, it would be back to the usual gooey salt pork plopped onto yams or rice. Now, the effort of eating so much, the work that had begun for him before dawn and the muggy heat of tropical August weighed him down.

Part of a long row of two story pink stucco buildings flanking the Christiansted square, the store had a high ceiling, a verandah beneath a colonnade and tall windows. It stayed fairly cool in the morning. Nevertheless, by 2:00 p.m. the room was almost as hot—and far stuffier—than the sun-blistered sand outside.

Beyond the door, nothing moved. No immense casks rolled by sweating blacks, no oxen, heads swaying, pulling an endless train of high sided, lumbering wagons. No planters in carriages with their ladies—fancy and otherwise—no heart-rending lamentations from the slave pens or shrieks from the public whipping post. No drunken sailors and their whores, seeking shelter for negotiations in the shade.

Only gulls stirred, wheeling and shrieking, making an incredible din. Alex knew they swarmed behind the building, fighting over refuse the cook threw out.

The sea, always moving, rising and falling, dangerous and alluring, could be smelt and heard, the fence that kept him in. Perhaps, someday, it might become a highway to the greater world, a world of which he continually dreamed.

His work area was a tall desk with a decided slant. The ledger rested on a narrow tray at the bottom; the wood was ink stained and grimy. Readjusting himself so that he could secure his seat at the high stool, Alexander looked down at his own bare calves and feet, dangling high above the broad, saw-dusted planks of the floor.

On every side, crammed in around him and around the counter, were casks and barrels of every size. Some contained Irish butter, some salt pork or salt cod. Others contained flour, keg bread, cornmeal or rice. Bohes and Congo tea sat in canisters. Yard goods, a rainbow of color, were piled on one counter or laid away in long pigeon holes which occupied most of a wall. Kitchen utensils and jars of green or blue containing medicinals occupied another shelf.

Pipes of Madeira, hams and barrels of Virginia tobacco shouldered in the cool, constant temperature of the stone cellar below. In a long warehouse area at the back of the store was stacked white pine from Albany, Georgia pitch pine, white and red oak staves and headings, along with casks of hinges, hooks, and spouts.

Behind the counter, another servant lay sleeping, his snores practically rattling the lids from the apothecary jars. Alexander knew he should be taking advantage of this time and resting, too, but he was too skinny to risk the floor and the irate toe of a rum-soaked planter’s boot if he overslept. The last time that had happened, his ribs had ached for weeks.

Someday, he thought, I shall sail away from here. I shall make my fortune and live like a gentleman. I shall have silk stockings and shoes with silver buckles, and ivory buttons on my vest and upon my knee breeches. As I go about my business, people will politely and respectfully lift their hats to me, the way they once greeted my father, in that long ago time when our family lived at Nevis.

* * *

His friend, Ned Stevens, at whose house he sometimes slept, sailed away from St. Croix, to King’s College in New York City, to begin the study of medicine. To him, Alexander wrote:

Ned, my Ambition is prevalent that I condemn the grov’ling and condition of a Clerk or the like, to which My Fortune etc. condemns me and would willingly risk my life tho’ not my Character to exalt my station. I’m confident, Ned that my Youth excludes me from any hopes of immediate Preferment nor do I desire it, but I mean to prepare the way for futurity. I’m no Philosopher you see and may be justly said to Build Castles in the Air. My Folly makes me asham’d and beg you’ll Conceal it, yet, Neddy, we have seen such Schemes successful when the Projector is Constant. I shall Conclude saying, I wish there was a War.

* * *

He did not want to remember how it had advanced over weeks, over months. Slowly, one by one, things happened, subtly hemming him in. He was burned—as indelibly as the red hot brands with which they seared the flesh of slaves and the Puerto Rican mules penned behind the store.

He had not believed such a thing could happen. He had trusted, taken the kindness, the generosity, at face value—as Christian Charity—such as they spoke of in church. But this Charity proved a fiction. It was all exactly as his mother had always said, those many nights when she’d raved and wept into her cups.

Goodness is never its own reward, Alex. Something is always expected in return.

Ah, yes, the bill had at last been presented, and he’d been forced to pay.

Who in hell do you think you are, you ungrateful little bastard? Why, if I hadn’t taken you in, you’d be on the street, begging every poxy sailor with sixpence. I warn you, boy, you could find yourself on the quay tomorrow.

There had been pain, shame, and the choking tears he had striven not to shed, the grotesque finale enacted amid his sobs. Senses reeling in the darkness, a spark stayed desperately aware, waited his opportunity. Drunken sleep came to his master, and Alex crept away. Sliding out of the bed, intent on escape, he held his breath. His knees shook with each creak of the floor. He found his breeches and left with them in hand, letting himself out through a verandah door.

There was a humiliating pause in which he’d stepped back into them. Outside, cool slates touched his feet. Rosy bougainvillea lapped the moonlit walls. At first, he wanted to go straight to the quay that extended into the harbor and leap into the ocean. The sharks which cruised there looking for dead slaves would put an end to his wretched existence....

How can I hold my head up again with this filthy name pinned upon me—and by a man I trusted? Flesh—so defiled, so utterly disgraced—is fit only for those ferocious watery scavengers. After this, nothing is left. Father and mother are gone. My inheritance—and now, my honor, too.

He’d been used with the same nonchalant rapacity with which planters used their bondsmen.

On the street, in the soft, sweet darkness, the mortifying ache let him know he could not bear to walk much further. Falling to his knees upon the warm pavement, he retched a scalding slurry of beef and wine—the fine dinner he’d first been treated to—into the gutter.

Standing, he groped his way along, leaning on the still warm stucco walls, damning his weakness. It was a weakness he’d tried and tried to destroy, one that compelled him to believe in people, to hunger for guidance and praise.

I should have known better. I’m twelve, after all.

He thought of himself as grown—he had to—but still the fatal frailty reappeared, this pitiful, childish wish to have a father, to be within a circle of family affection.

And now, once again, he’d been betrayed, brought down by this pitiful desire, deceived by a man he’d trusted, and brought to the depths. He wanted revenge, to settle the score. To return to that room with a knife, and plunge it deep into that pale, exposed throat. For a joyful moment he imagined a swift slashing blow, the dark eyes opening helplessly, the monster gargling on his own blood. An ocean of red might just wash his shame away.

And yet—yet—Oh God! I would still rather live than make a certain end upon the gallows…

Alexander stumbled into a storeroom. It was locked, but he, trusted by his Master, knew the location of an outside key. In this muggy refuge, smelling of a recent American shipment of cornmeal and pine, he would lie upon a heap of discarded sacks.

Sugaring time was coming, where work never stopped, hardly even for sleep. At least, tomorrow was Sunday, and he would not have to face the man who had abused his trust—the man he depended upon for survival. The man he now utterly despised.

At dawn, he could slink down to the sea, strip, and let the salt water wash away whatever it could. For one day, he had a reprieve, did not have to serve in the store, did not have to bow and smile on cue and say to all and sundry, Yes, sir! Right away, sir!

What’s your pleasure, sir?

Now, he knew. Oh, God help me! There is no one else….

* * *

Cut if off, Alexander said. He sat on an empty barrel in the barren yard. Cut it all off.

The old black barber hesitated, scissors in hand. Around them, a crowd of curious, naked black children gathered. Nearby their mothers, dressed in patched shifts, tied bundles of laundry. Squatting, one of them was making a neat coil of the oily rag she used to cushion her head from the load.

Got lice, Masta Elicks?

Yes. Cut it close. Close as ever you can.

A little while later, like the petals of some alien northern flower, the ginger curls lay all around his bare feet in the sand. Alexander felt the morning breeze touch his scalp. The sensation was strange, but it seemed apt.

I am naked now, stripped, almost to bone.

You don’t have no lice. What ya wan’ me cut da kine hair? Shaking his graying head, the barber held up a mirror. It was ancient, of polished metal. Alexander stared into the gray surface, and saw himself: pale thin face, freckles, deeply shadowed eyes, long head. Here and there little fuzzy licks of red stuck out, as the tight curl began to reassert itself.

That’s me. I’m not even the smallest half-step better now than a nigger.

* * *

He developed a sense of when it was coming, rather like his mother’s rages, fierce and sudden as a mast-snapping squall bearing in from the eastern sea. For a few days, he would warily manage to side-step, but in the end, one way or another, he’d be trapped again.

Master Nick would drink too much and general disaffection would settle in: Why am I the one stuck on this god-forsaken, plague-ridden island? Why wasn’t I posted to London, instead of Peter?

And later, after the threats and beating, after violation, smothered in sweaty linen, crushed against the bed, as he wept with helpless rage, the voice over his shoulder would become self-pitying.

Goddamn you! You’ve always got to fight, don’t you?

Next, would come drunken justification: A little of this won’t hurt you, ’cause you ain’t a man yet. Never changed me, after all.

* * *

Gulls blew over the harbor in dazzling morning light. The sea was an element Alexander could taste in the back of his mouth, like blood or sweat. He stood on a ship tied at the quay and watched as two more high-masted ships tacked towards Christiansted. He carried a ledger, the servant’s deferential step behind his lanky, pockmarked master. These days the book seemed to almost be a part of his body, dragged everywhere, the way he’d seen insects carry egg sacks.

Around him, sailors with tattered shirts scrubbed the planks and painted, pounded, sewed at sails, the thousand tasks of men whose ship is ashore after a long journey. Accompanied by the captains, Nick Cruger would look over his merchandise.

There were cargoes of timber, barrel staves, flour, and corn meal from America. Sometimes, with the smell of death and feces so penetrating Alexander feared he’d faint, he stood on the decks of ships where below, groaning, weeping Africans were chained and stacked like cord wood. As bad a stench came from those as from the ships filled with listless, half-dead Spanish mules, imported in bulk from the Main.

No matter what the ship contained, no matter what else attracted his attention as he stood on those gently swaying decks, Alexander listened, listened as he had never listened before.

This is what my father couldn’t learn. This business of shoveling flesh, bone, wood and metal into the maw of an island sugar factory. I will learn my way out of hell.

Timing the market was the thing, whether the merchandise was a hold full of suffering blacks, or half-starved, staggering mules. He heard how excise taxes in the North America trade could be avoided, the names of officers in various ports who could be tipped to overlook the fact that the barrels were full of something which differed from the bill of lading, the strategies of loading and unloading so that high duty items would escape the Harbor Master’s eye.

He listened to the captains—grim, bitter men, hard as the oak planks of their ships—when they spoke of sailing the routes where pirates and privateers lurked. He heard tales of bloody encounters. He watched as Nick Cruger acquired cannon for his ships, and looked on as the captains recruited the kind of men who knew how to use them.

Alexander also went with his master when he journeyed to ride the plantations. To prosper, a merchant in the import trade had to make an educated guess about the harvest. As peak ripening approached, the island hummed like a gigantic hive preparing to swarm.

Then, the store was jammed with everything from firewood, to barrel staves and brass fittings, to codfish and cornmeal. The pens bulged with slaves and mules.

Sales went on day and night. The harbor became a dense, bobbing thicket of masts. The normally sleepy streets of Christiansted would be crowded with gangs of slaves and laborers, endlessly loading and unloading. Sailors and whores conducted their business in the shade of the alleys, while the taverns played host to drunks and gamblers.

Crimes were committed: theft and murder, brawls over games of chance and women. Slaves displeased their owners. There were daily hangings, whippings, and brandings on the parade ground outside the fort, blood spilled and flesh seared, by the brightly uniformed Danish military. All of this went on just a stone’s throw from where Alexander worked, red-eyed and sleepless at the store’s counter or seated at a high desk, toiling over a ledger.

Occasionally, some of the ladies from his mother’s family would appear, ostensibly to shop for fabric, but actually to look Alexander over. He always bowed and chatted, as if shoeless and in ragged pants, he could still claim membership in a Plantation family.

Nick Cruger watched these performances with a cynical eye, but one of these ladies, Mrs. Venton, decided that this child of her wayward Cousin Rachel was charming. She began to invite Alex for supper, and then, one day, although she was hard pressed for money herself, she took her young relative to a tailor.

When Alexander started for church in a new suit of white linen, wearing fine black stockings and black shoes with pewter buckles, Adam, the biggest of Cruger’s house negroes, gave him a huge grin.

Goin’ courtin’, Masta Elicks? I swear, de gals in church won’ be able to sit still when de sees yah!

Alexander held his head a touch higher than usual as he entered the square stone church, squatting in the languid shade of tamarind trees. Although sunburned and freckled—he had just come in from a stint of riding the cane—he was confident in the knowledge he looked every inch the gentleman he wanted the world to see.

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Alexander clung to religion. He prayed night and morning, aloud, and down on his knees. Instead of slipping off to fish and swim with other boys on Sunday morning, he attended church.

Surely the God that made me as I am had a purpose!

Besides, church was where the men of influence and power could be seen. To assist his survival, his plan for escape, he knew he must be noticed. These days, he sat beside his new friend, kind Mrs. Venton, and listened with solemn attention to the invigorating oratory of the island’s newly arrived Presbyterian preacher, Reverend Hugh Knox.

Knox was a genuine scholar, a rarity in the West Indies. As was customary, besides preaching, he taught the children of local gentry. Mr. Stevens, the father of the beloved and absent Neddy, decided to ask Reverend Knox if he’d mind seeing another student at odd hours.

At first, the Reverend was lukewarm. He said he’d have to judge whether the boy was worth the trouble. After the first lesson, however, he was all enthusiasm.

A boy who wants to learn is rare enough at his age, but the way he soaks it up! It’ll be my pleasure to teach such an exceptional young fellow.

I’m glad to hear you say so, Reverend, Mr. Stevens replied. The boy’s born out of wedlock. His mother is dead. His father’s run off. The family he’s got left are too lost in their own troubles to be of any assistance. It’s a real shame, for Alex is as smart as a whip. I confess I’ve often wished my Ned had half his desire to get on.

Reverend Knox soon formed a plan for his newest pupil, a plan that involved getting Alexander to college in America, perhaps to his own Alma Mater, the young college of Princeton in the wilds of New Jersey. The Reverend wasn’t sure how the money could be raised, but he had a powerful confidence that Providence would intervene on behalf of such deserving.

He gave Alexander permission to come to his house and read his own collection of books. Besides this, he started him on several courses of study necessary to college preparation, Latin, Greek and Algebra.

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When Nick Cruger went to New York to recoup his health after a debilitating bout of the West Indies fever, he left fourteen year old Alexander Hamilton in charge of the store. For an entire winter, Alexander handled the St. Croix trade for his penultimate employers—Cruger & Sons of New York City.

He knew what to do and how to do it, but the responsibility was immense. Skinny and small, he had to boss men three times his age, ferocious sea captains and rough plantation bailiffs.

St. Croix

Oct. 21, 1771

Captain Newton:

You know it is intended that you shall go from thence to the Main for a load of Mules & I beg if you do, you’ll be very choice in Quality of your Mules and bring as many as your vessel can conveniently contain. By all means take in a large supply of provender. Remember you are to make three trips this Season & unless you are very diligent, you will be too late as our Crops will be early in.

— A. Hamilton

There were letters to keep Master Nick and his family in New York informed. On his fifteenth birthday—a work day, like any other—Alexander wrote:

To Nicholas Cruger

Via Merryland & Philadelphia

From St. Croix Jan 10th 1772

Dear Sir: The 101 barrels superfine Flour From Philadelphia are just landed, about 40, of which I have already sold at 11 1/2 pieces of eight/bbl but as probably there will be much less imported than I expected I intend to insist on 12 for the rest. Capt. Napper is arrivd and dl’d everything agreeable to his Bill Lading. He landed all at the Westend. The Beer I beg’d Mr. Herbert to sell there. The plate stockings etc. are deposited in Miss Nancy De Nully’s hands, and the Cheeses in #4 are disposed of thus: two, Mr. Beekman kept, and the other two I sent on to Mrs. De Nully.

I called upon Mr. Heyns to Day with the Bill on Capt. Hunter but he was at the Westend so that I can say nothing of that matter. (Mr Heyns I am told is Capt Hunters Attorney.)

Capt Gibbs is landing as fast as possible and you may depend I will give him all the dispatch in my power but I will not undertake to determine precisely when he will Sail as he tells me his cargo is Stow’d very inconveniently and the St. Croix part of it rather undermost. If so he could be detained longer than cou’d otherwise be expected. His Cargo will turn out pritty well. Lumber is high, 18 pounds, and most of the other Articles in Demand enough. But as I am a good deal hurried just now I beg you’ll accept this instead of a more minute detail of these matters which I shall send by the Next conveyance. I have not time to write your father.

I shall do as you desire concerning the Brig Nancys accounts.

Capt. Wells Cargo consisted of Lumber, Spermaceti Candles, Codfish and Ale Wives. All the Hoops he brought were sold immediately to Mr. Bignall at 70 pieces of eight/M and the Spermaceti Candles to different persons at 6 Spanish Reals per pound. We are selling the Codfish at ps. 6 1/2 Per hundredweight and the Ale Wives at 5 & 6 pieces of eight per Barrel. He will return in about 10 days with Sugar and Cotton.

This is all I have time to say now and if I have neglected anything material I beg you’ll excuse it being with the closest attention to your Interest.

Your most obt Servt: Alexander Hamilton

I shall provide Rum and Sugar for Capt. Gibb; the price of rum is now 2/9.

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Every week of his Master’s absence, Alexander measured himself against a doorsill in the back of his store, marking his height with a penknife. He was at last growing, and the change heartened him.

No matter how long the day before him, every morning he went into the back to direct the slaves who moved the stock around. He began to help with the physical labor. It seemed the easiest way to show the men how he wanted things, but there was another motive, too.

Alex had observed the muscles on those black arms. It seemed apparent to him that, just like book learning, even his skinny, boyish body could be taught. When Nick Cruger returned, Alexander had determined he would no longer be a helpless boy.

There came, in the course of things, the inevitable day when, as Alex stood tall as he could behind that mahogany counter, a bailiff he’d never liked called him a liar. Those who witnessed the event always laughed when retelling the story, saying that the fight had been like a small orange tomcat leaping on a mastiff.

Surprise and rage, combined with a couple of speedy, head punches, left the bailiff on his back, bleeding and, briefly, unconscious. Alexander got off the man’s chest and coolly directed his slaves to carry his adversary outside and dump him in the sandy street.

Later, sucking on his aching, bleeding knuckles, once more behind the counter—the best place to hide his shaking knees—Alexander saw that the slaves, even the other gentleman in the store, looked different. A huge, drunken sensation swelled, and for a lingering instant he had the dizzy sensation that he was so tall that his head pressed right against the ceiling.

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When Nick Cruger returned to St. Croix, he had his health back. More