Shadows in the Water Series: A Lou Thorne Thriller
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This box set includes the first three novels in the Shadows in the Water series: Shadows in the Water, Under the Bones, and Danse Macabre.
Meet Louie Thorne. They didn't kill her--and they'll soon regret it.
When DEA agent Jack Thorne's house is stormed by vengeful drug lords, both he and his wife are shot dead. Only his daughter Louie survives--by using a terrifying power that defies reason.
Piecing together a life in his absence, Louie embraces her gift and her rage under the force of a single need: revenge.
She will destroy the men that took her family. No matter the cost, no matter how many bullets, she won't stop until justice has been well and truly served.
And this is only the beginning. Find the first 3 books in this original new series, with heart-pounding suspense and surprising twists. Scroll up and one-click your copy today!
Kory M. Shrum
Kory M. Shrum is author of the bestselling Shadows in the Water and Dying for a Living series, as well as several other novels. She has loved books and words all her life. She reads almost every genre you can think of, but when she writes, she writes science fiction, fantasy, and thrillers, or often something that’s all of the above.In 2020, she launched a true crime podcast “Who Killed My Mother?”, sharing the true story of her mother’s tragic death. You can listen for free on YouTube or your favorite podcast app. She also publishes poetry under the name K.B. Marie.When not writing, eating, reading, or indulging in her true calling as a stay-at-home dog mom, she can usually be found under thick blankets with snacks. The kettle is almost always on.She lives in Michigan with her equally bookish wife, Kim, and their rescue pug, Charley.Learn more at www.korymshrum.com where you can sign up for her newsletter and receive free, exclusive ebooks.
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Shadows in the Water Series - Kory M. Shrum
SHADOWS IN THE WATER SERIES
BOOKS 1, 2 AND 3
KORY M. SHRUM
CONTENTS
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Shadows in the Water
Prologue
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Chapter 35
Chapter 36
Chapter 37
Chapter 38
Chapter 39
Chapter 40
Chapter 41
Epilogue
Acknowledgments
Under the Bones
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Chapter 35
Chapter 36
Chapter 37
Chapter 38
Chapter 39
Chapter 40
Epilogue
Acknowledgments
Danse Macabre
Prologue
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Chapter 35
Chapter 36
Chapter 37
Acknowledgments
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SHADOWS IN THE WATER
SHADOWS IN THE WATER BOOK 1
Thus did I by the water’s brink
Another world beneath me think;
And while the lofty spacious skies
Reversed there, abused mine eyes,
I fancied other feet
Came mine to touch or meet;
As by some puddle I did play
Another world within it lay.
—Thomas Traherne, Shadows in the Water
PROLOGUE
No, no, no. Her daughter’s hand shot out and seized Courtney’s slacks.
Don’t leave me."
Jesus Christ.
She tugged her pants from Louie’s dripping grip and shoved her back into the tub by her shoulders. What is it with you and water? It isn’t going to kill you. You won’t drown! And I have to finish dinner before your father gets home.
Louie’s chest collapsed with sobs. "Please. Please don’t go."
Stop crying. You’re too old to be crying like this.
Louie recoiled like a kicked dog, her body hunching into a C-curve.
God almighty, Courtney thought as shame flooded her. What am I supposed to do with her?
The illogical nature of your daughter’s fear doesn’t negate the fact her fear is very real, the therapist had said. Dr. Loveless must have repeated this a hundred times, but it didn’t make these episodes any easier. The fat-knuckled know-it-all had never been present for bath time.
Most ten-year-old girls could bathe on their own. No handholding. No hysterics. No goddamn therapy sessions once a week. And somehow this was supposed to be her fault? Why exactly? Because she’d gotten pregnant at eighteen?
No. She did everything right. She married Jack, despite her reservations. He was too young, uneducated, and a dreamer. Triple threat, her Republican father called it.
She read all the pregnancy books. She quit her managerial position at the insurance company and stayed home with Louie, practically giving the girl her undivided attention for the first five years of her life. If she was guilty of anything, it was over-attentiveness.
But Courtney didn’t believe for a second this was her fault.
It was Jack’s.
Jack was the one who insisted on renovating the upstairs bath and then insisted his friend do the renovations. Three years. Three years it sat unfinished and oh no they couldn’t go to another builder because Jack promised Gary the job. Jack and his misplaced loyalties. What did it get them? Bum friends who always borrowed money and three years with only the clawfoot bathtub to share between them.
Things worth having are worth waiting for, Jack had said.
This philosophy worked for a DEA agent like Jack, someone who had to track criminals for months or years, but Courtney had never been good at waiting. She preferred what her alcoholic father had called immediate gratification.
Within a week of switching from the shower to the clawfoot tub, Louie’s episodes began. After three long years, Courtney felt she’d had more than enough. God, it would be wonderful to shove a valium down the girl’s throat and be done with this. She wanted to. God almighty, she wanted to. But Jack had been firm about pills. Courtney loved Jack, but goddamn his self-righteous drugs are drugs
bullshit. Any half-wit knew the difference between valium and heroin.
You will have to be patient with her, Mrs. Thorne, if you want her to get through this without any lasting psychological damage.
Apparently, the therapist didn’t know a damn thing. The damage had already begun to show. Louie not only feared water now but dirt also. The child who used to come in at night covered head to toe in grass stains and palms powdered with pastel sidewalk chalk, now crept around as if playing a constant game of The Floor is Hot Lava. This morning, Louie had burst into tears when Courtney asked her to pull weeds from the hosta bed. Even after putting her in coveralls and peony pink garden gloves, the girl had whimpered through the task, ridiculous tears streaming down her cheeks.
Now, hands on hips, Courtney stared down at her hunched, shaking daughter. She could count the vertebrae protruding through her skin. She’d grown so thin lately.
It could be worse, she told herself. She could have a child with quadriplegic cerebral palsy like her book club buddy Beth Rankin. Would she rather have a kid who screamed in the bathtub three or four times a week, or a man-child who had to be pushed in a stroller everywhere and his shitty diapers changed and drooling chin wiped?
Courtney forced a slow exhale through flared nostrils and pried apart her clenched teeth.
Okay,
she said in a soft, practiced tone. Okay, I’m here. I’m right here.
She knelt beside the tub and grabbed a slick blue bottle of shampoo off a shelf above the toilet. As she squeezed the gel into her palm, Louie still cowered like a beaten dog, head and eyes down.
I’m sorry,
Courtney said, her cheeks flushing hotly. But it’s hard for me to understand this fear of yours.
The girl’s teeth chattered, but she said nothing. Only one of her eyes was visible from the slate of black hair slicked against her head.
Courtney massaged the soap into her hair. Thick white bubbles foamed between her knotty fingers, her skin turning red from the pressure and steam. Her gentle massaging did nothing to relax the girl.
Isn’t this nice?
Courtney asked. "I’d love it if someone washed my hair."
Louie said nothing, her arms wrapped tightly around her knees.
You have to lean back now.
She trailed her fingers through the gray water. So we can rinse.
Louie seized her mother’s arms.
I know.
Courtney tried to add a sweet lilt to her voice, but only managed indifference. Better than angry at least. I’m right here. Come on, lie back, baby.
She thought baby was a nice touch. Wasn’t it?
But Louie’s chest started to heave again as her head tipped back toward the soapy gray water.
"Breathe, baby. The sooner we do this, the sooner you can get out of the tub." Courtney hoped the girl wouldn’t hyperventilate. That would be the fucking icing on the cake. Dragging her wet body out of the tub would be hell on her back, and she’d already had her valium for the night. She’d risk taking another, but she knew Jack counted them.
As the back of Louie’s hair dipped into the water, her golden eyes widened. Her fingers raked down Courtney’s arms as she clung tighter. All right. It only stung a little, and it would be something to show Jack later when she complained about his lateness.
It was your turn for bath night and look what happened. She might even get away with a second glass of wine at dinner sans lecturing if the marks were red enough.
This made her smile.
With one arm completely submerged under Louie’s back, buoying the girl, she could use her free hand to rinse Louie’s hair. Thick clumps of soap melted into the water with each swipe of her fingers.
There.
Louie’s muscles went soft, her nails retracting.
Not so bad, is it?
Courtney cooed with genuine affection now. I love baths. I find them very relaxing.
Louie even managed a small smile.
Then the oven dinged.
My ham!
Courtney clambered to her feet.
No, no, no!
Louie frantically wiped water from her eyes and tried to pull herself into an upright position. Don’t! Please!
And just like that, the hysterics were in full swing again. Fucking Jack. I’m going to kill you. Breathe, baby.
Shaking suds off her arms, Courtney jogged toward her glazed ham and caramelized Brussels sprouts three rooms away. The sweet, roasted smell met her halfway. "The door is open, baby. Keep talking so I can hear you."
Mom!
Louie screamed. Mommy! It’s happening!
I’m right here.
She slipped a quilted oven mitt over each hand. Talk to me. I’m listening.
The girl’s escalating hysteria cut off mid-scream. For a moment, there was only a buzzing silence.
Courtney’s heart skipped a beat. Her body froze instinctually. Her reptilian brain registering danger entered a mimicked catatonia. For several heartbeats, she could only stand there before her electric range, in her gloved hands, the oven mitts spaced equidistantly as if still holding the casserole dish between them.
Her eyes were fixed on a spaghetti sauce splatter to the right of the stove, above a ceramic canister holding rice. She stared without seeing.
Then a chill shuddered up the woman’s spine, reactivating her systems. As her muscles cramped, she thought, fear trumps valium. She yanked off the oven mitts, throwing them down beside the casserole dish steaming on the stovetop. She jogged back to the bathroom, the silence growing palpable.
Louie?
The tub was empty. No shadows beneath the soapy gray water.
In a ridiculous impulse, she looked behind the bathroom door and then inside the small cabinet beneath the sink, knowing full well Louie couldn’t fit into either space.
The bathroom was empty. Louie?
She ran to the girl’s bedroom.
It was empty too. And the wood floor tracing the entire length of the house was bone dry. Louie’s soft Mickey Mouse towel, the one they bought on their trip to Disney World two years ago, still hung from the hook by the tub.
She searched every inch of their house, and when she couldn’t find her, she called Jack. When he didn’t answer, she called again and left a frantic message.
He arrived twenty minutes later.
They searched again. They called everyone. They spoke to every neighbor and the police. If Courtney thought Dr. Loveless was a ruthless interrogator with his second chin and swollen knuckles, she found the authorities much worse.
I didn’t kill her!
she said for the thousandth time. "Jack, do something! These are your friends!"
For three nights, they had no peace. Courtney doubled the wine and valium, but it wasn’t enough currency to buy sleep.
In the early morning hours, she would find herself wandering their house, wearing down a path between the clawfoot tub and Louie’s empty bed. Sitting on the firm twin mattress, she would pull back the Ninja Turtle comforter hoping to find her underneath.
In her mind, she apologized for every frustration, every cruel thought. I’ll do anything—anything. Bring her home.
The call came on the fourth day.
Sixty miles east of the Thorne’s home in St. Louis, Jacob Foxton was interviewed many times by the police, but his story never changed.
His nieces were coming down from Minnesota for the Memorial Day weekend, and he and his wife were very excited to see them. They’d changed the sheets on the spare bed and stocked the fridge with root beer and Klondike bars. The pool was uncovered and cleaned, and the heater turned on. All that was left to do before their arrival was mow the yard.
I was cutting my grass, and she…appeared.
As the police tried to pin the abduction on the man, the lack of evidence made it impossible. Foxton had no priors, and a neighbor confirmed Foxton’s rendition.
Billie Hodges had been washing her Chevy Tahoe with a clear view of the Foxton family pool. Like Foxton, Hodges swore the girl simply appeared.
As if from thin air.
After thirty-six fruitless hours, the Perry County Sheriff’s Department was forced to believe Jacob Foxton had merely cut a left around his rudbeckia bushes with his squat red push mower and found Louie Thorne standing there, on the top step of his pool.
Naked. Soaking wet. Her dark hair stuck to her pale back like an oil slick. Foxton released the lawnmower’s safety bar, killing the engine.
Hey! Hey you!
He rushed toward her, clumps of fresh cut grass clinging to his bare ankles.
The girl turned toward the sound of his voice, and his scolding lecture died on his lips. It wasn’t only her fear that stopped him.
It was the blood.
So much that a cloud of pink swirled toward the drain in his pool.
The girl’s body was covered in lacerations, the kind he got on his arms and legs as a kid, hiking through the woods. A great many of them stretched across her stomach and legs and a particularly nasty one across her cheek.
She must have run through the forests of hell, he thought.
But it wasn’t the scratches that frightened him.
A ring of punctures encircled the girl’s right shoulder. A ragged halo from neck to bicep. Like some hungry beast larger than the girl had grabbed ahold of her with its teeth. Long rivulets of blood streamed down her pale limbs, beading on her skin.
Honey.
Jacob pulled off his T-shirt and yanked it down over the child’s head. If she cared about the sweaty condition of the shirt, the grass stains, or Jacob’s hairy belly, she didn’t show it. Are you all right?
Is it still on me?
she whispered. She turned her face toward Jacob, but her eyes didn’t focus. His mother called that a thousand-yard stare.
Who did this to you, honey?
Jacob asked. He took her hands in his. The hairs on his arms rose at the sight of blood pooled beneath her nails.
Jacob?
Called Billie from across the stretch of lawn between their two yards. Is everything all right?
Call an ambulance,
Jacob yelled. He saw the girl’s mouth move. What was that, honey?
Is it still on me?
she whispered again. Is it?
And that was the last thing she said before collapsing into his arms.
1
Fourteen years later
Lou unfolded the tourist map and eyed a man over the rim of the creased paper. A boxy man with a crooked nose and a single bushy brow stood on the harbor dock, smoking a cigarette. He draped an arm around a woman’s shoulder while he joked with another guy twice his size, a hairy bear as wide as he was tall. The woman was a little more than a caricature to Lou. Big hair and a big mouth, made bigger by the annoying smack of bubblegum between her magenta lips. Her clothes were too tight in some places and nonexistent in others. A Jersey girl , Aunt Lucy would’ve called her.
Lou scowled at the tourist map, pretending to read about the seaport’s attractions, and wondered if the girl under Angelo Martinelli’s arm would feel half as cozy if she knew what a monster he was.
If Bubblegum Barbie was observant, she might have noticed Martinelli’s penchant for leather, Dunhill cigarettes, and pointy shoes. Maybe Barbie even suspected the Martinelli family was responsible for fueling the heroin problem in Baltimore. Hell, she probably tolerated this aftershave-soaked prick for the heroin.
Whatever Barbie thought she knew of the Italian draped over her, Lou knew a hell of a lot more.
She should. She’d been hunting Angelo since she was fourteen.
Lou looked away as if to read the street sign, her heart fluttering with anticipation. A steady pulse throbbed in the side of her neck and in her hands. She was thankful her dark shades and windblown hair hid her excitement. And grateful that Martinelli was too nearsighted to see the map tremble in her sweaty grip.
Her mind kept turning toward the future, when he’d receive a shipment at Pier C and insist on counting everything himself. Better yet, because he’d want to be discreet as to how much dope he imported, his security detail would be thinner. He’d invite enough muscle to get the job done. No more.
Lou wouldn’t get him entirely alone. A man like Angelo was never alone. He didn’t even fuck without an audience. She knew this because she’d considered the possibility of going O-Ren Ishii on his ass. Before fully exploring this option, Lou realized she’d forsake her vow of revenge and blow her own brains out long before trying to seduce a Martinelli.
Tonight there would be guns, of course. And the ones chosen for this evening’s mission would be fighters. Perhaps a few even better than Lou herself.
And there was the water to consider. The harbor sparkled in the late afternoon sun. Looking at it made Lou’s skin itch.
Angelo ran a thick hand through his oiled hair and tossed his Dunhill butt on the ground. He smashed it out with a twist of his boot and hooked an arm around Barbie’s waist.
Tonight, she thought, as a swarm of tourists swelled on the pier. I’m going to kill you and love every minute of it.
Her sunglasses hitched higher on her face as she grinned.
Before Angelo could turn toward her and spot a familiar ghost in the crowd, Lou did what she did best.
She disappeared, not returning until well after dark.
By 2:00 A.M., all the tourists were in bed with dreams of the next day.
Lou, on the other hand, wasn’t sure she had another day in her. That was okay. She didn’t need to see another sunrise as long as Angelo Martinelli didn’t either.
Lying on top of one of the shipping containers, Lou had a great view of the docks below. Her forearms and body were covered in leather and Kevlar, but her palms were bare. The metal container serving as her lookout was warm under her palms, sun-soaked from the day. She was small enough to fit into the grooves in the top of the container, making her invisible to those below. Unless of course, Angelo arrived by helicopter.
Her body squirmed. Despite the pleasant breeze rolling off the deep harbor, sweat was starting to pool at the back of her neck beneath her hairline. Her feet twitched with excitement.
Death by waiting, she thought.
She was desperate to swing at something. She imagined certain animals felt this way during the full moon. Hungry, unsettled, itching all over.
Do it already, her mind begged. Slip. A heartbeat later she’d be standing behind Angelo. So close she could run her hands through his greased hair.
Boo, motherfucker.
Not motherfucker, she thought. Mother killer.
True, Courtney Thorne was hard to love. Her compulsive and domineering behavior, her impatience. Her tendency to chide and scorn rather than praise. Her face a perpetual pout rather than a smile.
But Louie also remembered how hard her mother had hugged her the day after she was found in Ohio. Louie had sat in the sheriff’s office for hours, wrapped in a scratchy wool blanket consuming all the soda and peanut butter cups she could stomach until her parents arrived.
Louie! Her mother had cried the moment she stepped through the station’s glass doors. Louie had only managed to put down her soda can and slide out of the chair before her mother fell on her, seizing and squeezing her half to death. She smelled like makeup powder and rose water. Like the old woman she would never become.
Courtney wasn’t her favorite parent, but she didn’t deserve to die either.
Louie’s fists clenched at her side.
Angelo’s men stirred on the pier. To anyone else, it seemed as if an innocuous few stood around, smoking, and talking. Apart from the hour, nothing suspicious there. But Lou glimpsed blades catching moonlight and saw the bulging outlines of guns under jackets.
Jackets in this heat were clue enough.
Cops stopped patrolling the harbor at midnight. Lou wondered if that could be blamed on budget cuts, ignorance, or money from Angelo’s own pockets. A little of each, she thought.
She’d almost succumbed to drumming her fingers on the shipping container when a car pulled into view.
The black sedan was like so many others Angelo had rented in cities where he’d done business before: Chicago. San Francisco, New York, Atlanta and now Baltimore.
As soon as she saw the car, she started to slip. Bleeding through this side of the world. No. Not yet, she scolded herself. Don’t fuck this up.
She’d only have one good shot. One chance to catch him off guard.
Tonight she would finish what her father started so many years ago.
Someone opened the back door, and Angelo stepped out. He adjusted the lapels of his leather jacket. She took a deep breath and let it out slowly. Again. Because the sight of him was enough to make her heart hammer.
Angelo called out to someone in Italian, then pointed at the boat. Ho due cagne in calore che mi aspettano ed un grammo di neve con il mio nome scritto sopra.
Louie only understood a little Italian and caught the words two whores and waiting. Enough to get the gist of his harsh tone and thrusting hips, and comprehend why the men leered. One whistled through his teeth.
Angelo cupped his hands around a fresh Dunhill. A flame sparked, illuminating his face. With a wave, Angelo led his entourage to the pier where the boat sat tied to the dock. The boat rocked in the waves, straining against its rope, like a tied horse ready to run.
As soon as Angelo placed one foot on the boat, then dipping his head to enter the cabin, Lou let go.
She bled through. One moment she lay on top of the shipping container, the next, she stood in the shadows beneath the cabin’s stairs. Her eyes leveled with Angelo’s heels. It was hot in the unventilated room.
Angelo Martinelli descended the stairs with a man in front and one behind him. Lou smelled the leather of his boots and the smoke from his cigarette. I can grab him now, she thought. Reach between the steps and seize his ankle like in a horror movie.
Someone turned on the overhead light, and the interior of the boat burned yellow in the glow of the 40-watt bulb. Lou jumped back into the corner without thinking. An honest reaction to the sudden influx of light.
But her shoulder blades connected with a solid wall.
Heads snapped up at the sound of Lou searching for an exit that had been there only a moment before but was now gone.
She had only a second to decide.
She drew her gun, one fluid and practiced movement, and shot the overhead light. The 40-watt bulb burst, exploding in a shower of sparks. It was enough to throw them back into darkness and provide Lou with her exit. She slipped behind the stairs, then emerged from a narrow pathway between two shipping containers. Gunfire erupted inside the boat behind her. The ship strained against its rope again, and the wooden docks creaked.
More men came running, guns drawn.
She cursed and slammed her fist into the shipping container. So much for the surprise.
The chance to grab Martinelli and slip away undetected was gone. As her target emerged from the boat, gun at the ready, the weight of her mistake intensified.
He was spooked. Now he looked like the horse ready to run.
He inhaled sharp breaths of salty air as he hurried toward his car in short, quick strides. Fifty steps. Thirty-five. Twenty and he’ll be gone.
It was now or never.
Fifteen steps.
Ten.
The thick tint of Angelo’s car might work to her advantage, but her timing had to be perfect. Her blood whistled in her ears as she counted his last steps.
3….2…1…
She stepped from the edge of the shipping container into the backseat of Angelo’s car. The leather seat rushed up to greet her, bending her legs into place.
But it was her hands that mattered. And she had plenty of time to position them.
Angelo turned away from her, pulling the car door shut. She pressed her gun to his temple the second the door clicked into place.
The driver began to turn, pulling his weapon up from his lap but he was too slow. Louie lifted a second pistol from her hip and shoved it to the back of his neck, to the smooth nape. His neck tensed under the barrel, shifting the gun metal against her fingers.
Don’t,
she said. Her eyes were fixed on Angelo. I have a better idea.
You were not in the car when I opened the door,
Angelo said. His tobacco breath stung her nose. I’m certain of this.
Imagine how quick I am with a gun.
It was a bold bluff given her predicament. His men were abandoning the boat. Some were moving the heroin. Others were lumbering toward other vehicles. If even one of them got into this car, she was screwed.
She could produce a third gun, sure. But not a third hand to hold it.
You were also on the boat.
Angelo’s eyes shined in the dark, reflecting light like the black sea in front of them. Or one like you.
That would put me in two places at once,
she said. She arched an eyebrow. Impossible.
The driver remained very still, his hands at the ten and two positions on the wheel. Lou didn’t recognize him, but she doubted that she’d ever forget the thick stench of Old Spice turned sour with sweat. It made her head swim.
If he was new, he was probably uninterested in doing anything that would cost him his life. She’d have to test this theory.
What do you want?
Angelo asked. He shifted uncomfortably. Lou had found her silence made men nervous. Or maybe it was her gun. Difficult to tell. Money? The drugs?
Driver?
she said.
The driver didn’t turn toward her or even make a small sound of acknowledgment.
Do you see the pier?
she went on, eyes still on Angelo. One of his greased curls fell across his forehead, and one corner of his lip curled in a partial sneer. His cheek muscles twitched. Beside the pier is a space between the guardrails. Do you see it?
The driver remained mute. His shoulders remained hunched, eyes forward. It was as if he’d had guns pressed to his head before and had since learned how to keep even a single muscle from twitching.
Lou saw all this in her perfect peripheral vision, not daring to look away from the man she wanted most.
Angelo Martinelli. This close he was smaller than she’d imagined.
She smiled at him, the taste of victory on her lips. Drive into the bay.
When the driver didn’t move, she smacked the gun against his occipital bone. If you don’t do it, then you’re useless to me, and I think you understand what happens to useless people.
If he refused to drive, she’d shoot them both. It would be messier. Riskier. But if she couldn’t get Martinelli into the water, she wasn’t going to let this opportunity escape.
Yes. If Lou had to, she’d shoot them both and drive the car into the bay herself.
Make your choice, Martinelli,
she said. His eyes were pools of ink shining in the lamplight.
The confused pinch of his brow smoothed out. The curling sneer pulled into a tight grin.
Drive,
he said.
Without hesitation, the driver put the car into motion, and the sedan rolled forward.
Faster,
Lou said, grinning wider.
Faster,
Angelo agreed. A small chuckle rumbled in his throat. He slapped the back of the driver’s seat like this was a game. "Faster."
The driver punched the accelerator, and the car lurched forward. As it blasted past the men on the docks, shouts pinged off the windows. Angelo’s laugh grew more robust, pleasing belly laugh.
He’s high as hell, she realized. High as hell without any idea of what’s happening to him.
They hit a bump when flying past the guardrails and onto the pier. The wooden slats clunked under the car’s tires.
In the wake of Angelo’s mania, Lou couldn’t help but smile herself. She didn’t lower the gun. You’re crazy.
This proclamation only made him laugh harder, clutching at his belly. His laugh warped into a wheezing whine.
The thrum of the wooden slats disappeared as the car launched itself off the pier. The sharp stench of fish wafted up to greet them as they floated suspended above the ocean. Her stomach dropped as the nose of the car tipped forward and the windshield filled with black Atlantic water.
There was a moment of weightlessness, of being lifted out of her seat and then the car hit the water’s surface. Her aim faltered on impact, but she’d righted herself before either man could.
Cold water rushed in through the windows, trickling first through the corners, filling the car slowly as they slid deeper into the darkness. It seeped through the laces of her boots.
Now what?
Angelo asked. He seemed genuinely thrilled. As if this was the most exciting experience of his life.
We wait,
she said.
She’s going to shoot us and leave our bodies in the water.
The driver’s voice surprised her, higher and more childish than she imagined. No wonder he’d kept his mouth shut.
The driver could open the door and swim away for all she cared. I don’t—
The driver couldn’t wait for any reassurance. He whirled, lifting his gun.
Without a thought, she fired two shots into his skull, a quick double tap. His head rocked back as if punched. The brains splattered across the windows like Pollock’s paint thrown onto a canvas.
She was glad she’d decided on the suppressor. Her ears would be bleeding from the noise if she hadn’t. The smell of blood bloomed in the car. Bright and metallic. It was followed by the smell of piss.
Angelo’s humor left him. Is it my turn now, ragazzina?
Water gurgled around the windows as the car sank deeper into the dark bay.
No,
she said, her eyes reflecting the dark water around them. I have something else for you.
2
Will you do it?
The question looped in King’s mind. Will you do it, Robbie?
At the corner of St. Peter and Bourbon, Robert King paused beneath a neon bar sign. Thudding bass blared through the open door, hitting him in the chest. The doorman motioned him forward. King waved him off. He was done drinking for the night. Not only because the hurricane was getting acquainted with the pickle chips he’d eaten earlier, but because the case file under his arms wasn’t going to examine itself.
Despite the riot in his stomach, he hoped the booze would help him sleep. He was overdue a good night. A night without crushing darkness and concrete blocks pinning him down on all sides. A night where he didn’t wake up at least twice with the taste of plaster dust on his lips. Leaving the bedside light on helped, but sometimes even that wasn’t enough to keep the nightmares away.
Drunk revelers stumbled out of the bar laughing, and a woman down the street busked with her violin case open at her feet. The violin’s whine floated toward him but was swallowed by the bass from the bar.
King paused to inspect his reflection in the front window. He smoothed his shaggy hair with a slick palm. He could barely see the scar. A bullet had cut a ten-degree angle across his cheekbone before blasting a wedge off his ear. The ear folded in on itself when it grew back together, giving him an elfish look.
A whole building collapsed on him, and it hadn’t left a single mark. One bullet and…well, he supposed that was how the world worked.
Calamity didn’t kill you. What finished you was the shot you never saw coming.
He straightened and smiled at the man in the glass.
Good.
Now that he didn’t look like a drunk, it was time to make sure he didn’t smell like one. He pinned the file against his body with a clenched elbow and dug into his pocket for mints. He popped two mints out of the red tin and into his mouth, rolling them back and forth with his tongue as if to erase all the evidence. Satisfied, he continued his slow progress toward home.
The central streets of the French Quarter were never dark, even after the shops closed and all that remained were the human fleas feeding in the red light of Bourbon Street. The city didn’t want a bunch of drunks searching for their hotels in the dark, nor did they care to provide cover for the petty pickpockets who preyed on them. There were plenty of both in this ecosystem.
At the corner of Royal and St. Peter, King paused beneath a metal sign swinging in the breeze rolling in off Lake Pontchartrain and wiped his boots on the curb. Gum. Vomit. Dog shit. A pedestrian could pick up all sorts of discarded waste on these streets. He balanced his unsteady body by placing one hand on a metal post, cane height and topped with a horse’s head. The pointed ears pressed into his palm as he struggled to balance himself.
A fire engine red building stood waiting for him to clean his feet. Black iron railings crowned the place, with ferns lining the balcony. Hunter green shutters framed oversized windows overlooking both Royal and St. Peter.
The market across the street was still open. King considered ducking in and buying a bento box, but one acidic pickle belch changed his mind. He rubbed his nose, suppressing a sneeze.
Best to go to bed early and think about all that Brasso had told him. Sleep on it. Perhaps literally with the photographs and testimony of one Paula Venetti under his pillow for safe keeping.
And with his gun too, should someone come in during the night and press a blade to his throat in search of information. It wouldn’t be the first time.
Will you do it?
King supposed if he thought this case was hot enough to warrant a knifing in the night, he should’ve said no. He should remind his old partner he’s retired. Brasso should find some young buck full of piss and vinegar. Not a man pushing sixty who can’t have two cocktails without getting acid reflux severe enough to be mistaken for a heart attack.
The case file sat heavy in his hand. Heavier than it had been when he’d first accepted it. He clutched the folder tighter and crossed the threshold into Mel’s shop, the lights flickered, and a ghostly moan vibrated the shelves.
A gaggle of girls looked up from their cell phones wide-eyed. Then they burst into laughter. One with braces snorted, and the laughter began anew.
Mel’s sales tactics may not be old hat to them, but King found the 10,000 th fake moan less thrilling than the first. Funny how it had been the same with his ex-wife.
It’s all about theatrics with these folk, Mel had said when she forced him to help install the unconventional door chime. They come to N’awlins for the witchy voodoo stuff, and if you want to keep renting my room upstairs, Mr. King, you best clip these two wires here together. My old fingers don’t bend the way they used to.
And he did want to keep renting the large one-bedroom apartment upstairs, so he offered no further resistance to her schemes.
The store was smoky with incense. Ylang ylang. Despite the open door and late breeze, a visible cloud hung in the air, haloing the bookshelves and trinket displays full of sugar skulls, candles, statues of saints, and porcelain figurines. The fact that he recognized the scent spoke of Mel’s influence on him these past months. If someone had bet him he would know the difference between ylang ylang and geranium two years ago, he would have lost the shirt off his back.
Apart from the four girls clustered by a wall of talismans, only one other patron was in the store. A rail-thin man with a rainbow tank top and cut-off jean shorts showing the bottom of his ass cheeks plucked a Revenge is Love candle from a wooden shelf. He read the label with one hand on his hip. When he scratched his ash blond hair, glitter rained onto the floor.
King’s heart sank. Despite Mel’s endless tactics, business was still slow. At ten o’clock on a Friday, this place should be packed wall-to-wall with tourists, ravers, or even drunks. Five customers did not an income make.
Behind the counter, a twenty-two-year-old girl with a white pixie cut took one look at the falling glitter and her nostrils flared.
Piper wore a sleeveless tank top with deep arm holes revealing her black sports bra beneath. A diamond cat earring sat curled in the upper curve of her ear and sparkled in the light of the cathedral chandelier overhead. A hemp necklace with three glass beads hung around her neck. Every finger had a silver ring, and a crow in flight was tattooed on her inner wrist. She managed to mask her irritation before Booty Shorts reached the counter with his purchase.
$6.99.
Piper slipped the candle into a paper bag with the Madame Melandra’s Fortunes and Fixes logo stamped on the front.
Booty Shorts thanked her and sashayed out into the night. A glow stick around his neck burned magenta in the dark.
I don’t see what a candle can do that a hitman can’t.
Piper blew her long bangs out of her face.
Why would you have someone else fight your battles for you?
I don’t hit girls.
Piper scoffed in mock indignation. Anyway, my point is it’s a waste of time sitting up all night with a candle praying to some goddess who doesn’t give two shits about my sex life. Don’t cry about your sour milk! Go get another fish! A cute, kissable fish who’ll let you unsnap her bra after a couple tequila shots.
Be grateful for the candle-burning crybabies,
King adjusted the folder under his arms. Unless you want to be a shop girl somewhere else.
Her nostrils flared. "Apprentice. I’m learning how to read fortunes. Sometimes I set up a table in Jackson Square and make shit up. People pay me! It’s unbelievable."
The Quarter is a dicey place for a young woman to be alone.
"Awww. I’ve always wanted a concerned father figure. She pressed her hands to her heart. Then she rolled her eyes.
Who said I was alone?"
Were you with Tiffany?
Tanya,
she corrected. "And no. We broke up weeks ago."
King rubbed the back of his head, leaning heavily against the glass case. That’s right. You left her for Amy.
Amanda,
she said. Keep up, man.
He’d never been great with names. Now faces—he never forgot a face. I’m sorry. How’s Amanda?
She’s—
A teenage girl burst from behind the curtain, clutching her palm as if it’d been burned. Fat tears slid down her cheeks, glistening in the light until her friends enfolded her in their arms.
The velvety curtain with its spiraling gold tassels was pulled back again and hung on a hook to one side of the door frame. From the shadows, a voluptuous black woman with considerable hips emerged. Mel’s kohl-rimmed eyes burned and an off-the-shoulders patchwork dress hugged her curvy frame. Gold bangles jangled against her wrist as she adjusted the purple shawl around her.
Bad news?
Piper arched a brow, and King realized she’d begun to mimic Mel’s dramatic eye makeup.
Mel crossed the small shop, and King straightened again. He hoped his eyes weren’t glassy, and the mints had done the trick.
Mel stopped short of the counter and put one hand on her hip.
Crushing hearts?
Piper asked, and she sounded excited about it.
Mel rolled her eyes. I only suggested a book.
Piper frowned. What book?
Mel puckered her lips. "He’s Just Not That Into You."
Piper’s grin deepened. "You’re so cruel. Do you want me to talk to her? I’m really good with damsels."
They’re release tears. They’re good for the soul. She’ll wake up tomorrow and feel like the sun is shining, the baby bluebirds are singing, and—
—she’ll be $80 lighter for it,
Piper muttered.
She’ll be fine.
Mel tapped her long purple nails on the checkout counter and turned her dark eyes on King. "You, on the other hand, you’re in trouble. Big trouble."
King felt the sweat beading under his collar. He resisted the urge to reach up and pull at it. It was the chandelier overhead, beating down on him. Or he could blame the muggy night. New Orleans was hot as hell in June. Sweating didn’t mean a damn thing.
You’re awfully quiet tonight, Mr. King.
He shrugged.
Mel stopped tapping her fingers on the glass countertops. King noticed reflective gems had been glued to the end of her index fingernails. I see a woman in your future. She’s someone from your past. Pretty little white thing. Blonde. Big blue eyes. And she needs your help.
His ex-wife Fiona had brown eyes, and no one would have called her a pretty little white thing." She’d been nearly six feet tall with the body of a rugby player.
Lucy.
Is this a real fortune, Mel?
he asked his tongue heavy in his mouth.
Mel wrinkled her nose. As real as the booze on your breath, Mr. King.
He adjusted the file under his arm. It’s mouthwash.
I’ve done told you when you signed your lease, I wouldn’t let no drunk man in my house again.
King found it amusing when Mel’s southern accent thickened with her anger. Amusing, but he didn’t dare smile. Mel hadn’t wanted to rent her spare apartment to anyone, let alone a man. It had taken two weeks of wooing and reference checking to convince the fortune teller an ex-DEA agent was an asset rather than a liability.
At least he’s not an angry drunk.
Piper tried to pull the file free from King’s underarm. She bit her lip as she tried to peel the flaps apart and glimpse the contents within.
He slapped her hand lightly. I’m not even buzzed.
Mel’s eyes flicked to the case file then met his again. She arched an eyebrow.
King didn’t believe in palm reading or fortune telling. Ghosts only existed in the mind, and he would be the first to admit he had a menagerie of malevolent spirits haunting him.
But despite what his mother called a healthy dose of skepticism, he believed in intuition. Intuition was knowledge the frontal lobe had yet to process. He trusted his instinct and he respected the instinct of others. No one person could see every angle. Shooters on the roof. Boots on the ground. You had to rely on someone else’s eyes, and this was no different.
Did Mel sense something about the case Brasso brought him? About a witness on the run and the man hunting her? And this mysterious woman from his past…
Mel spoke to the gaggle of girls. Who’s next?
Three hands shot up. Someone cried, Me!
Clearly, they were eager to have their hearts broken.
Wait.
King touched her shoulder, and she turned. Were you serious about the woman?
I don’t need to be a fortune teller to know there’s a woman, Mr. King.
Mel tucked one of the girls behind the curtain and met his eyes again. She looked at him through long, painted lashes. Candle flames danced on the walls behind her. She’s in your apartment.
You let a woman into my apartment?
His heart took off. "There’s a woman in my apartment? Now?"
Mel grinned and dropped the burgundy curtain.
Good luck with your ex-girlfriend.
Piper swiped at the floor with a corn husk broom, doing no more than smearing the glitter. Hope you have better luck than I do with mine.
I’ll be okay.
King stood at the base of the stairs, looking up at his dark door. Probably.
3
The moment the water overtook the car, Lou made her largest slip yet. She took Angelo, the car, and the dead driver. She didn’t know if this was her doing, or if some things slip through on the current of their own desire. After all, there were enough rumors. Ships found floating without people. The Bermuda triangle. Planes disappeared and were never seen again. No debris ever found. She wasn’t so egotistic to assume she was the only one who could slip through thin places.
Once the dark water turned red, became a different lake in a different place and time, Lou kicked out the window and swam.
She surfaced beside the body of the driver. He floated face down in the water. His shirt was puffed up in places where the air had entered beneath his collar. The water of Blood Lake, always the same crimson hue, added a surreal dimension to the floating body. As if the driver floated in an ocean of his own blood.
A large splash caught her attention, and she paddled in a half-circle. Her heavy boots tugged at her ankles, making it harder to stay afloat.
It wasn’t Angelo. He was moving slowly toward the shore, making poor progress under the weight of his leather jacket. He slapped at the surface of the lake, each clumsy stroke of his arm like an eagle trying to swim. She spun further to the right in time to see a large dorsal fin dip beneath the surface about ten yards away.
She didn’t need to be told getting out of the water was a good idea. Blood in the water was sure to attract any predator, earthly or otherwise. The splattered brains on the sinking car’s window was an added draw.
And she didn’t have much time. The ripples of the creature’s descent were already lapping at her breast bone.
She swam for shore in slow, controlled movements. Not panicked. Not like prey. Yet she expected at any moment to find herself jerked under. Each easy stroke toward Angelo was an act of self-control.
Yet she emerged from the lake unharmed. Her heart hammered, but her body was whole. Angelo inspected a cut on his hand. He hadn’t been careful enough with the broken window he’d pushed himself through.
Lou watched him, waited for him to adjust to his surroundings.
Finally, he looked up. He made a small sound of surprise, and Lou followed his gaze toward the water. The body of the driver bobbed once. Then a harder jerk submerged all but the puffed shirt. A flick of a large grotesque tail covered in purple spines slapped against the surface. One more tug and the body was gone. Only ripples on the surface suggested an exchange had happened.
Angelo stared gape-mouthed at the sky, transfixed by the two moons sagging there. We are dead.
Lou tried to imagine what this place looked like to him. What it had looked like to her on her first visit.
The red lake. The white mountains. The strange yellow sky. A black forest with short trees and heart shaped leaves. Incongruous colors that were so different than those of her world.
You are a demon.
He crossed himself and kissed a saint pendant hanging from a gold chain around his neck.
It was the smell of sulfur that made him think of Hell, no doubt. It hung in the air and would cling to her hair and skin until she bathed. She shook water off her hands. This is not some Roman Catholic parable.
Though you will learn a lesson here, she thought.
Who are you?
Jack Thorne’s daughter.
Angelo’s eyes widen. No. She hit the bottom of the pool and didn’t come up.
I didn’t come up, she thought. I went down. Sometimes the only way out is through. And Lou thought there wasn’t another person on Earth who that could be more true for.
She remembered every detail of that night, of her father’s final hours. As if those moments had been burned like images onto film, forever preserved in her mind.
On the last night of his life, Jack Thorne entered their Tudor house in the St. Louis suburbs. He stood there in the doorway, wearing his bulletproof vest and badge. He was an intimidating sight, over six feet tall and filling the doorway like an ogre from a storybook. His gaze was direct and cumbersome most of the time. Only when he smiled, and the lines beside his eyes creased, did the gaze feel friendly.
I want to talk to you,
he said.
Louie, twelve, had slowly lowered her book, mentally marking her place on the page, before looking up from the window seat where she sat.
Her father had laughed, his grin transforming his face. You’re not in trouble. Scout’s honor.
He’d never been a scout, but that hadn’t stopped him from hailing the three-finger salute.
He ruffled her hair before heading to his bedroom where he changed. She’d listened to him, to the sound of his holster buttons snapping open. The clunk of the gun being placed on the dresser. One boot falling with a thud to the floor. Then the other. The Velcro of the bulletproof vest ripping free. These were the sounds of him coming home, and they had comforted her.
At dinner, she pushed a piece of soft, over-boiled broccoli around her plate, and waited. She listened to her mother complain about her day, about her part-time job at the chiropractor’s office.
They don’t even vaccinate their children,
her mother sneered between sips of red wine. Six children and no vaccinations. Haven’t they ever heard of herd immunity?
Mmmhmm,
her father said companionably and scraped up the last of his turkey and broccoli with a fork. The turkey was dry as sandpaper, and the broccoli was practically mush. But Jack Thorne ate it with the same relish he would have a 24 oz. Porterhouse because of his respect for the woman who made it. Tasteless food never hurt anyone, he’d told Louie once. But cruel words do.
"Dr. Perdy said, ‘my children have never been sick.’ I wanted to ask, ‘do you know why, Dr. Perdy?’ Herd immunity, that’s why. And do you know how we gained herd immunity?"
Hmmm?
her father prompted, as he was expected to. He sat back in his chair, unbuttoned his jeans and began reviewing his teeth with a toothpick.
He’s supposed to be a medical professional.
Courtney finished her glass of wine. A medical professional surely understands what could happen if we sabotage our herd immunity.
Her father took a swig of beer. Do you want to do anything special this summer, Louie?
Louie looked up from her broccoli and shrugged.
Her mother made a tsk with her tongue, a sound which she reserved to express her annoyance. In this instance, it was about her husband’s unbuttoned pants at the table and his attempt to shift the conversation to their daughter.
Louie’s showers usually ended with such a tsk of her mother’s tongue and a complaint about her aching back. Other times, her mother would thrust the towel past the curtain and hold it there until Louie wiped the water out of her eyes and took it. She hadn’t been allowed to bathe alone since she’d returned from Ohio.
She should do summer school this summer,
Courtney said with arched brows. Her social studies grade was dismal! We need to get serious about this, Lou. You only have four years before you start applying to college.
Louie opened her mouth but caught her father’s slight shake of the head. She shut her mouth and resumed her assault on the vegetables.
Courtney topped off her glass of wine and retired to the bedroom, with the cordless phone as she did every night. She’d call her sister, and they’d talk while watching the DVR recordings of her favorite soap operas.
As soon as the bedroom door closed, her father nodded toward the back door. Last one out is a snot-covered Wheat Thin.
Louie wrinkled her nose. Gross!
Any lingering hunger from her unsatisfying meal was squashed by this disgusting image. She pushed back from the oaken table.
Despite his playful attempt to put her at ease, her heart knocked wildly against her ribs and her legs dragged beneath her like two bags of wet sand. She wasn’t sure if it was the prospect of going near the pool or the pretense of their conversation.
Her father turned to find her trailing reluctantly behind.
She closed the door and stepped out into their fenced backyard. She skirted the kidney bean-shaped pool. Her eyes transfixed on the dark water. What’s wrong?
Come over here and sit with me,
he said. He slipped into one of the poolside chairs and patted the seat beside him.
Her arms and legs felt ten pounds heavier, but Louie obeyed, inching toward him. Once they were knee to knee, he spoke up.
I want to talk about the pool.
The pulse in her ears blocked out all sound.
Stay with me, Louie,
he said as she instinctively stepped away from the water. I know this scares you, but it’s important.
When she didn’t answer, he put his hand on her shoulder, cupping the large scar encircling her upper arm and clavicle. Twenty-three stitches and months of physical therapy to combat the scar tissue which formed after.
Louie, Louiiii. Oh baby,
he sang. If he wanted her to smile, he sang mumbled nonsense from some ‘60s cover song. Do you trust me?
She did. But she only managed a small nod despite her father’s pleasing baritone.
Do you remember me telling you about Aunt Lucy?
Her brows pinched together. The one you named me after?
That’s the one. I want you to go stay with her.
You’re sending me away?
She swayed on her feet. The shadows dancing at the edge of the motion lights pressed in on her, swiped at her neck and face with cold fingers. And the water—the godawful water—seemed to roll toward her like a hungry, anxious tongue, lapping at the sides of the pool.
No, no,
her father said, squeezing her shoulders. Aunt Lucy can help you.
Summer school,
she blurted. Mom said I—
You don’t need to learn about wars, Lou-blue. You need help.
I’m sorry about—
Louie stammered. I know it’s not normal. I—
No, no, hey,
he said. He pulled her into his arms. She collapsed completely even before he kissed the top of her head. A whiff of beer burned her nose. She liked the smell. She wrapped her arms around him.
This isn’t a punishment. You haven’t done anything wrong. Do you hear me?
I don’t want to leave.
Tears stung the corners of her eyes. Her fists balled behind his back. Don’t make me leave.
I only feel safe with you. She wasn’t sure if it was merely his size or the steady calm of his presence. He wasn’t reactive like her mother. He wasn’t volatile in his responses—one minute pleased, the next panicked—he was even. Predictable. A cool, unmovable stone to rest her hot face against.
He grounded her in a world where she felt on the verge of falling through at any moment.
Maybe Lucy can come here,
he said, kissing the top of her head. But you need to see her. I think she can help you. When we were children, she would disappear like you did.
She pulled herself out of his lap. Like her. Someone in the world like her. Why didn’t you tell me?
An aunt. An aunt like me. Why didn’t you tell me about Aunt Lucy?
I had to find her first.
He considered the beer bottle as if the answer was hidden in the bottom. He looked up and saw the questions in Lou’s eyes. Aunt Lucy and I didn’t always get along. I didn’t believe her. I thought she disappeared for attention. I figured she liked scaring our grandmother half to death.
Louie cupped her elbows with her palms and chewed her lip. An aunt. An aunt like me.
But I believe you,
he said and pushed her hair out of her eyes. And I don’t want you to be afraid. When you’re out of school this summer, we’ll have three whole months to work on this. We’ll figure this out.
This isn’t a trick?
Louie whispered, squeezing her elbow tighter. I’m not being sent away to an insane asylum or something?
No,
he said, firm. Lucy wants to help. She thinks she can show you how to control it—
Louie’s voice bursts from her throat. I’m not going in the water!
You can control it,
her father said again. He pressed her hands to his beard, trapping them beneath his own. She loved this beard and thought it made him look very handsome. But it wasn’t enough to soothe her blind panic. Not now. When the pool seemed to swell in her vision.
No.
She tried to pull her hands away from his. You don’t understand. There are things over there.
He wouldn’t let go of her. You can conquer this. And I’ll be right here.
Nightmares reared in her mind. A great yellow eye. Rows of stained teeth. Hooked talons reaching.
Master this, Lou-blue. Don’t be its victim.
He cupped her cheeks this time and kissed the tip of her nose. Promise me.
Gunfire erupted in the house. Their heads snapped toward the sound of it in time to see strobe lights flash in the bedroom window. The noise of glass shattering wafted through the open bedroom window. No screams. Then the gunfire ceased, and the bedroom fell dark again except for the soft blue light of the television.
Seconds later, only long enough for her father to stand from the pool