Like many adults in their mid-40's, I had a depressive identity crisis. Undiagnosed ADHD symptoms created patterns of behavior that only seemed to destroy everything I built . Those with ADHD can be crazy successful one minute, and ready to start over the next. There is a new term floating around which I absolutely love. Neurodivergent.

Several recognised types of neurodivergence, include autism, Asperger's syndrome, dyslexia, dyscalculia, epilepsy, hyperlexia, dyspraxia, ADHD, obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD), and Tourette syndrome (TS).They all have overlapping symptoms that can go unnoticed, and wreak having on the direction of our lives.

Mine is one such story. So, what happens when you combine the hyperfixation commonly associated with ADHD, and the obsessiveness of OCD, to figure it out? In autism terms this is called a special interest. Now, let's juice it up a bit more. The prescription for Adderall became the power source to unleash the full potential. I had no idea of the power that my mind had! I became so motivated that I quit working for the family business, and convinced my wife to quit her job to start a new company together. The statistics against the success of a marriage surviving the stress of a starting something like this is dismal. But not us! We've never even had a serious fight in 15 years!

As you can guess, our marriage began to fall apart rapidly once we started working together. The damage from years of Florida attics began to almost cripple me,the company was started to struggle, my wife is blaming me, and now I'm in a full blown mid-life crisis. My mind began to attack itself; spiraling into a catastrophic depression.

If it wasn't for three little grams of a harmless fungus, I may not have been here to write this story. I promise you. You will want to know what happened after I took my already lazer guided focus, and powered it with the nuclear energy source of psilocybin mushrooms! My methods are controversial! My objective was to first figure out what just happened to my mind; second, how can I go back there! Not surprisingly, a symptom of mine happens to be poor risk assessment, which aided me well when donning my Psychedelic VR helmet. One of my hopes is that my experiences shed some light on the fear surrounding how powerful these entheogens can be for healing.

What I became through the process of writing this book is unimaginable for most, and mystical for others. I feel Neurodivergencies were evolved out of an environmental need to be more aware of the senses. Human intelligence is at an all time high; while sensory intelligence is at an all time low. The internet has made skeptics out of almost all of us; the answers to our human condition are becoming more homogeneous. I feel the time has come for a more direct approach; a more black and white perspective of spirituality to see just what's actually behind human behavior.

Neurodivergent's don't have a social disability, we're just born closer to our senses. We have an ego that was born knowing how to use this body, but society conditioned us to conflict with that. Labels are not fit for human consumption they are for others to navigate us; they're sticky, suppressive, and destructive to self-worth if identified with. I used my label to find the tools I needed to unlock my very own Philosophers Stone.

This is the story of how I became...Dis-labeled.

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