Why did I have the urge to write about these sex partners? I think it's because of my upbringing. I have been in this circle for 6 years, starting from one evening in the first year when I first came into contact with the gay community online. Since then, I couldn't control myself.

6 years, not long but not short either. In these 6 years, I have experienced so many things. I have felt happy because of love; I have been simple-minded and just wanted to make friends; I have felt excited to go to gay hangouts; I have felt the thrill of having sex with a sex partner in the rain outdoors; I have enjoyed group encounters with several sex partners; I have cried for love; I have feared contracting AIDS; I have been openly pursued and confessed to by a guy in public.

6 years, there have been happiness, sadness, surprises, and worries. But in these 6 years, I have come to know myself better: all I want is physical pleasure, not spiritual comfort. During these 6 years, I roughly calculated that I have been intimate with over 100 guys, and how many of them have engaged in the 69 position with me, I don't even know. I don't know how this number appears in your eyes, but I feel terrified by myself.

With this article, I want to document my promiscuous and depraved life, but at the same time, I want to reflect on myself because I want to live a healthier life.

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